Don't give up Rowen! Trust me I get it, I've had my heart torn to shreds before and I wanted to die when it happened to me but if I gave in to my demons that told me the same shit your demons are telling you I would be alone and miserable toward the opposite sex (and God knows how many other things) still today, and who knows what else would be going wrong in my life as I type this? As mentioned in previous posts yes there are certain ways you may need to change your approach to certain things but the love in your heart and soul is a gift and if you refuse to share it then all hope for you is lost. I don't know if there's anything I can say to make you feel better but if there's anything I can say to help you make yourself feel better in the long run it's not to give up hope. If life wants to push you down and pound your head into the ground, get up and get ready for more. Take the hits, let your skull get crushed, let your bones get broken, let your dick get torn off, whatever. But don't ever give up on yourself, don't even mention it again. Wear a shock collar and hit the button every time it crosses your mind if you have to, just get that notion the **** out of your world.
You're a good man Rowen, surely a better man than one who runs away from his problems and throws in the towel as soon as he goes down a few times....right?
Last edited by dickriculous; 11-01-14 at 02:13 PM.
They see indoctrination and they call it "morality", "professionalism", or "maturity" depending on the context.