where do i go from here?

[truffelo]

Hello,

So off course, this goes about a girl...

This Summer I've met this amazing girl. I'm 26, She's 21. We had like an instant click and saw each other a few times on a short time. I felt this was something special which i hadn't felt since a long time. Nothing really happened and nothing was spoken out loud, but there was just this special feelling. But college started and it seemed she still had some troubles with her ex bf. And suddenly we lost contact which was supprisingly difficult for me.
I went back to my own, stopped looking for contact with her, had a couple of dates with other woman etc, but i couldn't resist thinking a lot on that girl i've met during summer. Every weekend i hoped to see her again, but didn't happen.

A month or 3 later ( maybe 2 months ago), i replied to a status update of her on facebook. Suddenly we had contact again...
She liked really a lot of things back on my facebook the next weeks ( even pictures i posted more than a year ago), we started chatting now and then again, she came over at my place ( with a common friend)...

But I was dating another girl during that period. So it was easy for me not to think about it too much but i felt I had to break op with the other girl could i didn't had the same feelings i felt like I had for the girl I met in the summer, not even a bit... so I did.

Suddenly me and this girl were chatting like crazy. We talked about a lot and laughed a lot. She was studying for het winter examinations. I noticed how she knew a lot of things about me, I even didn't tell her. She gave me a lot of compliments like " you always make me happy" "you're like a sunshine for me" "you're the most funny guy I've ever met" " You're the most interesting person I have ever met" " I wish you were here"...

So between 2 examinations she came over to my place, but I'm not a person who's very good in flirting and anyhow, it was the first the time we were alone. She arrived at 8 pm and left the next day at 4 pm. Nothing happened, we slept on a seperate couch in my living room, but talked and laughed the whole night and day. a few days later I saw her again during the afternoon.

But then she took a bit distance, which was painfull for me but i didn't want to be clingy so i respected the distance. After a week she started again, asking to meet. So we did. This is one week ago.
Thursday she came over my place and again stayed for 5 hours, I must say this was the first time a felt a bit tension ... but nothing happened. We aggreed i'd come over to her place on sunday.

but friday she texted me in the middle of the night to see what i was doing and if i wanted to hang out with her. I was allready home from a concert but it was weekend, so i aggreed. She really had to drive more than 30 minutes, so she really took effort. Once she was at my place she suggested to stay over there, off course i aggreed. I didn't take long before she laid her head very close to me so i started to fondle her hair... after a while she started to talk about it and asked if I had feelings for her. I admitted. and said how much i liked the time we had. She said she must admit she thought about me often and she really liked me but she allready had convinced herself ( before the last weeks) she didn't want a relationship with anyone. She was afraid to lose herself in a relationship again etc.

We were getting very close physical, we were fondling, hugging etc during a few hours. I tried to kiss her but she rejected and said she really wanted to but that that would ruin everything. I was 9 am before she left and she asked what i was planning to do that evening. That evening she sent me again a text message to ask if i'd come to the bar she was. I was already planning to go over there with my friends so i aggreed. It was obvious that she was there with some friends but the only reason she was there, was to see me... I saw her looking very jealous when i was talking with other girls too, so i stopped doing that and went to her.

She asked to go smoking outside and took my hand. After an hour she said she wanted to go to sleep and i asked her if she wanted to stay over my place and she said "ok". Once at my place everything happened really fast. It was very passionate, it was perfect. It was like we've known each other during years but still very passionate. We fell asleep really close to each other. It was fantastic. Never felt so great. Next day (last sunday) we stayed in bed untill 4 pm and talked, laughed, hugged, made love, everything.

We still had that "date" in the evening at her place and she asked if I still wanted to come, off course i aggreed. Once I was there, it was a bit awkard during a few minutes but that was over really quick. and before we knew it we were kissing again like teenagers and slept together again. She told me she did already told her friend she had never had such a great sexual experience as with me. She also told that she wasn't used to let someone soo quick so close to her

Next day she sent me she was feeling strange about everything because she could handle that i could have created expectations to start a relationship. She didn't want to talk about it too much and i didn't want to talk all over that with text messages so i took a bit distance. She asked to see each other again on wednesday (yesterday), I said ok.
next day she sent some sweet messages but i didn't want to answer too much.

Yesterday she came over and again, it was awkward at the beginning. We didn't really talked about it. We watched a movie and after half an hour or so, we were again lying very close to each other . But she didn't gave me the opportunity to kiss her. After an hour or 5 she left again. It was a great night but off course i was somewhere disappointed.

So this was a long story, i want to thank you to read it though i do know my english sucks. I really have the feeling she likes me a lot but she's very afraid to jump into a new relationship. I really Really really like this girl a lot. She's funny, smart,sweet, beautiful, sexy, social, interesting, great taste. I really want to try to do this right. This girl is really worth a lot for me

what do you guys think, suggest?

[Mattiemae]

I would just take it slow, and let her lead the way. If she's not ready, or still processing things give her time and space to sort out her feelings and emotions.