Any of you considered love or lust spell to your ex gf? A little hardcore venting.

[youcanever]

I think I am losing it. My ex is becoming an obsession in my mind everyday passes. I was at university for my master degree yesterday, 9 hours classes nonstop. I was fine at first 6 hours and then last 3 hours I just couldn't stop thinking of getting her back no matter what. And I did lots of research and found a website that helps. He said, she would contact me in 7 days and will get back to me, otherwise he would give me my money back. And the amount of money he ask for is not that much.

I have things to make my mind busy. Working 8am to 6pm 5 days a week. Have master degree classes for engineering thursday evenings 7pm-10pm. Also saturdays, I have classes 10am to 7pm. Hitting gym 3-4 times a week. And other times I am constantly studying my lessons to get that degree.

But still, my ex is in my fcking mind. She broke up with me months ago. I got over her but she contacted me every 3-4 months. And couple of weeks ago we made out, had sex, had great 2 days then she got out of my life again. Didn't give a damn about me. I am sure she is flirting with tons of guys and even looking for a new relationship.

I am extremely angry and mad at her. My ego is so low, my self-respect is at the bottom. I am in a self-destructive pattern because my feelings started for her and she ****ing got out of my life without give a **** about me AGAIN !!! I want to use this spell to take her back, and make her love me and want to have intimacy with me. That is what I want.

I read tons of articles about those stuff. People say, don't do it, it backfires, you end up back etc. But as long as I am in self-destructive pattern I don't give a damn about me.

Lastnight after class, I booked a hotel room to meet an escort. But somehow I managed my mind and stood against brain and used willpower and cancelled the escort. Even though I paid for hotel room I feel a lil good about myself to cancelling it. Because I've been with lots of escorts before then I was scared I get some disaese and promised not to do it again after my blood test came clean. So if I did it, I would break that promise.

But, about that ex situation, things doesn't get better. All I am thinking is she is banging other guy when I am working and studying my ass off and enjoying it so much and thinking like "hahahaha, I used OP, he loves me again but I am sucking this dick in my mount and it is sooo good, my new guy is so much better than OP, I will do everything he wants and let him abuse me on bed all night long"

Ah, I feel a lil good now after venting but I will keep writing if things come up to my mind.

I am losing it.

[MrLoyal]

I've heard the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else. Is this true? Worth a shot!