Hi everyone, I really need some advice!
Both myself and my boyfriend are 22 and have been together just over a year now. We are sexually active though we have had problems in that area which is basically what this post is about. Long story short: the first time we tried to have sex, he was unable to maintain an erection which came as a surprise to both of us. Naturally I felt it was my fault and thought he didn't find me attractive and he was surprised because he swore that he does find me very attractive and didn't understand what was happening. Though he later told me that during the latter stages of his past relationship he did experience some problems maintaining an erection but merely put it down to the fact that he didn't find her particularly sexy.
After this experience, he went home and watched porn and was able to maintain an erection. After some research, he diagnosed himself with 'porn addiction' which basically means that due to watching porn, men feel desensitised doing the real thing with a real woman, therefore resulting in problems maintaining an erection during sexual intercourse. Soon afterwards, we managed to have sex and have carried on doing so without problems other than the odd anomaly which happened once or twice. We even went on holiday together for a week and everything in that department was absolutely fine and we both remarked that he was recovering well since he claimed he had taken all the steps necessary to recover from 'porn addiction' i.e. quitting watching porn and masturbating to it. He was happy, I was happy and we were in a good place (sexually speaking).
This was until about a month ago, he told me to go into his email to check something for him and whilst I was doing so, I discovered all these online prescriptions for viagra which date back to when we first had sex and basically every time we have had sex. I feel I've always been supportive and he has told me so too, I mean, I understand it's embarrassing for him to admit but is lying really the way out? This is meant to be an honest relationship and now I feel so hurt on one hand and worried for him on the other. What do I do?
P.s. We haven't done the deed since I found out as I haven't actually seen him since as we're long distance for a period of the summer, incase you were wondering.