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[knowwhatimean?]

Hey there gang, found the site through a desperate search late one night last week. I've read a bit, absorbed a lot and thought I'd say hello and thx. My story, (try and keep it short), was dumped 2 1/2 weeks ago, completely out of left field. I'm working on getting back to the person I was 14 mths ago and pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again. Some good days, some bad ones I figure all you can do is learn the lessons and move on. Go big or go home, as they say but the process is such a *itch.

I'm keeping busy-zero contact rule following last proprty exchange (unmaned) in a cpl of days. I still think about him all the time-but I feel the intensity diminishing as I look forward to all the plans I've made for myself in the fall.

There are times I ask myself why can't I be kind to myself and not feel like fool, for clinging to my own reality and not seeing this coming? Where did the karma of the intense cruelty since displayed come from? I've always been honest and compassionate. My whole circle of freinds and family were also stunned-no one saw it coming. But there it was. I don't ever want to be that far out of touch with reality again. (I'll try and keep it down next time.)

[Illusional]

haha it's hard not to care for someone when you can't control your feelings. however, it's something that you will have to learn. as for me, i'm just a natural dick.

raverboy

[Tone]

Welcome!

We like girls here!

[Lloyd95]

Welcome!

We like girls here!

Well, except for the gay guys....not that there's anything wrong with that.

[misombra]

hi and welcome.

[Tone]

Well, except for the gay guys....not that there's anything wrong with that.

Do we have any of them 'round here?!

[Junket]

Gay gay?

From what I know, no we don't.

KristyM was lesbian, but she stopped posting a long time ago.

And Wing claims to be bi.

[knowwhatimean?]

Thx, figured I've got 30% of the work done, I know which direction I'm heading and how I want to start getting my ducks in a row. The other 70% is getting off my @ss and doing it. I've been enjoying the self pity squalor fest, rationalized until I can be objective enough to see my part in things. Said my Vios con dios and life goes on. Now I need to get to work.

Wicked storm cleansing New Orleans today-we spent valentine's there, wiped the slate clean, which means I can go back one day. Love that town. Katrina should be coming through here day after tomorrow.

[Kiechi]

HEY. Welcome to the forum. If you do not consume a mug of coffee in exactly 10 seconds you will become GINGER. 10 seconds and counting...

[zena]

hello. am a newbie here. currently in a rocky relationship. hpe i can get to know people here who could help. thanks a lot.

[Kiechi]

hello. am a newbie here. currently in a rocky relationship. hpe i can get to know people here who could help. thanks a lot.

You know you should make your own thread for introducing yourself.

[Tone]

Yeah, stop tryin to mooch off knowwhatimean!

[lilwing89]

wing is here.

welcome person, *dubs with level 5 sword*

i wonder where quest akieta is???

[knowwhatimean?]

indeed. Hey zena . Joined a gym and WENT today, trainer set up a routine, man have I got some work ahead of me. Went out on my bike today for the first time since the break up, It was good to feel the wind through my hair. All and all it's been a good day. Day after tomorrow we'll do the last property switch (unmaned) and then all thoughts will be in the past where they belong. Broke up 3 wks tomorrow.
For the first time I can recall in ages, I had happy thoughts that didn't involve ol' what's his name. It's a start. ( I also cleaned up a bit-hate that part)

[lovestruck]

i'm also new here, but welcome.