some mixed signals. am i wasting my time?

[robotboy2]

i have recently started seeing someone (a little less than two months ago). i sort of work with this person (not the same office, she works for our business partners. rarely see her in person on a professional level.) i have had a big crush since the moment i met her, a little more than a year ago. we ran into each other outside of work at a few shows and got to chatting a bunch. i had always suspected that we would get along well, should we get to share some time and that's what happened. we casually started dating and it has been a ton of fun, mostly. she kind of held me off at 1st, but eventually she began showing interest in more obvious ways. we started spending the night together every now and then and things accelerated. she gave me a toothbrush for christmas, for when i stay at her house. totally unexpected... we spent most of christmas work break together, having a blast. she invited me to dinner to meet a very old friend, said she didnt want to see anyone else, spent NYE with me, etc etc. then we got back to work... and things seemed different. she wasn't contacting me as much. i should mention there were a couple occasions where i got pretty drunk and got a little intense with the relationship talk (i might be falling in love with you, let's have a baby etc. seemed funny at the time and she sad it wasn't a big deal). I asked her if she wanted to do some things a couple times and she said she did but then blew me off. so I just kind of dropped it for a few days and then she texts me at midnight the other night asking what's up and shows up where i am at to hang out. she's had a few at this point, and we go home together. when we get back to her place, she lectures me about the last time we stayed at my house and how my bed was in the corner and how that sends a signal that i don't want anyone to really stay there for anything more than a fling... then tells me she's not sure what she wants and that we need to slow things down and that the things i had said were pretty intense. i ask if she wants to break it off, see other people, etc etc and she says no. and said the same the next morning when we had a brief hazy recall of the night before. but, in my experience, the "i don't know what i want" statement is a sign she's ready to end it. anyways, she calls me a couple days later, we go out again, have a great time, despite the fact that i am nervous as **** and it feels like the 1st time i ever hung out with her except a little more scary... we def had some drinks, went home together, etc etc. she mentions the next morning that she had a great time.
long story short, kind of a roller coaster. do actions speak louder than words in these scenarios? because her actions (there are more but i've said plenty i think)would indicate she wants to continue seeing me. but the whole i don't know what i want thing has me pretty worried. i realize that the best thing for me to do here is to slow things down and let her take the lead on the pacing, but i don't want to keep putting myself out there, feeling the way i feel about her, and make myself more vulnerable than i already have.

[Wakeup]

but i don't want to keep putting myself out there, feeling the way i feel about her, and make myself more vulnerable than i already have.

Then don't put yourself out there. Slowing things down means you put the brakes on "how you feel" about her and you stop confessing said feelings. You continue to do as you say and let her call the pace and stop saying things like "will you have my baby."

Give yourself a time limit to see if she had decided what it is she wants... like another three months while you hold your feeling back and stop yourself from becoming vulnerable to her.

Its that or you just break up with her now and be confident enough in your decision not to let it hold you back from dating other women and getting on with your life without her in it.

Good luck.

I will say that it sounds like she wants you in her life so just chill for now.