really long and just need closure

[Emokitteh18]

Ok, this is kinda long, so please bear with me! >n<"
Ok, so I've liked this guy for a little over 2 years now. Yeah I'm head over heels for this guy... Even though he has a girlfriend. Yes, I'm aware this is wrong, no I'm not a home wrecker, and no I never have/will make a move. However, I wouldn't still be smitten with this guy if I only liked him for being attractive. I like him for a reason. Here is the story:
During my first semester if my junior year in high school, I had an eating disorder. I was in the beginning stages of anorexia. I wouldn't eat and every time I did, I couldn't hold down my food. In truth, I was trying to get my parents' attention as well as I want happy with my body. After a while, I was switched into another group in my foods class. Before this, I noticed this guy was starting to stare at me every chance he got.
After I got into his group, we started to talk and became friends. One day, he took notice of my strange easing habits. He kept pestering me to tell until he finally made me spill about my disorder. He told me some interesting things and made me look at my situation in a different light. After that I began to eat again and even gained a few pounds! I realized after that that I really liked this guy. He was the first guy in my life to take action on a serious situation and help me.
However, life has a funny way of making things quite funky. The day I was gonna admit my feelings, he got with his girlfriend... Lovely, isn't it? I was distraught and eventually dove into a year long depression. It was the worst times of my life. I had never felt so strongly for a guy in my entire 19 years of living.
Second semester, I had no classes with him. It was also the worst year of school and not just because of him or the depression.
First semester of senior year brought change however. Both in a bad way, and in a good way. Someone must have over heard me say something about him and started a rumor that I was trying to break them up. How awful! Before this happened, we were walking home together because I felt unsafe (as I had later come to find out that people were getting stalked) and he lives around the corner from me.
He told me about the rumor and told me not to worry, but I panicked and he eventually calmed me down. I didn't want him to think anything bad of me. We walked home for about 2-3 months before he got a part in a play and stopped walking home. I couldn't tell if he liked me or was just being nice. Some things I noticed were that he would take notice of little things like me wearing makeup, complementing my looks, playfully pushing me (almost) into the snow, and always listening carefully at what I had to say. Seriously, he was the best listener ever and even picked up on little hints in my conversation (I want afraid to tell him anything personal).
I've heard from many sources that his girlfriend isn't the nicest (yes, I have talked to her before... they all were right). She has him on a leash and openly flirts with guys in front of him. She also won't allow him to have other friends... What an awful relationship. Every time we would walk home, she would call him (because she knew about it) and even tried to get me away from him by making up a lie and telling me that he doesn't like me. I told him this and he was unaware of it! He told me that he still wanted to walk with me and that it was his girlfriend that had done that. He also apologized constantly after he would get done talking to his gf on the phone.
I felt horrible as I had no intention on taking him away. I just wanted to be friends with him because he is a special friend to me. I didn't want to lose him.. But unfortunately we store talking because we both had rides and I graduated.
I'm SO sorry this was a long story, but I just want some closure as to if he liked me or not. I guess you could call these a series if unfortunate events. Sometimes I wish I'd never have met him. That way I could move on... But I can't. Time will have to work is magic.

[Wakeup]

He liked you as a friend and being a kind guy, he saw that you were in trouble and gave you some advice (re your eating disorder). If he liked you romantically then he would have asked you out on one of the many occasions he had to do so when walking you home or having one of your good platonic friend chats.

Now is the time to change the subject of him when he pops into your head and gradually wean yourself away from crushing on him. Crushes are common, we've all had them and most of the time we never end up with who we were crushing on. It's time to do the mental work you should do to get yourself indifferent to him so that you are open in heart and mind to let another guy in. Know without a doubt that if a guy has romantic interest in you, he'll let you know quickly so that you're not nabbed up by another guy when he's least expecting it.

Keep up the good work on eating healthily and maintaining a positive mind set about your own value.

Cheers.

[Emokitteh18]

Aw thank you so much for replying! Yeah, my mind does work differently and it takes me a while to get me off of something xD I'm just glad I don't see him anymore, to be honest. And it will be a bit harder for me to find the right type of person (I have a type and I'm bisexual) due to some personal stuff in the past. So until another person steps into my life, I'll be able to move on. I'm still working on trying to maintain a positive mindset