Hi, ive been with my boyfriend for nearly 3 years, we are both 18. I haven't loved him for over a year, and he knows this. However I cannot break up with him because he will never talk to me again, but he's my best friend. So I have to pretend everyday. Why don't I love him? I'm not into guys anymore. I crave a lesbian relationship, but I can't come out and I cannot break up with my boyfriend, please help me