Feeling Broken
So I'm not entirely sure this post is going to end in a question Per se but I feel this desire to reach out because I'm feeling alone and at this point it isn't deally appopriate to talk to my friends and family about it.
I'm dealing with a lot of insecurity in my current relationship.
The short story of how my relationship started is that I was interested in this guy (for the sake of the story we will name him mike) we are now in our mid 20's but when we were in our early teens I wanted to date Mike but he wasn't interested in me (he was totally hung up on this girl who was leading him on) so I let it go. Less than a year ago we got back in touch, hung out a few times and then started dating pretty seriously shortly thereafter. A few months into the relationship we started having more serious conversations and got on the topic of girls in his past. Bad subject for someone like me who is so sensitive :-( but I tried to play it off at first like it didn't bother me, because of course I was curious and in a bad way wanted to know. Long story short after discussing a slew of girls - I got the picture that he has a type and it just isn't what I look like !!!!!! :-( he's into short tan blue eyes brown haired girls. (He's shorter than I am) I am tall, pale, green eyed and strawberry blonde hair. He also showed me a profile picture of this "hot little Asian"
This just makes me want to throw in the towel. I know that's stupid but it's just really hard because I don't feel like I am what he wants... I've also been cheated on in the past - it makes me worry he is going to cheat on me with a girl that is more his type. I try to let it go but sometimes it's hard with my self esteem issues. Help me
Hunter S. Thompson once said "Buy the ticket, Take the ride."