just lisen...i need to tell someone this...:/ got tierd to be sad all the time

[eversoalone]

my troubles started 2.5 years ago...when i met someone on the internet....during the "relationshipe" i found out she had a bf....and things went cold....not too cold but just enought so i could date someone...who seemd nice...and on new years eve i said to my new gf.....i love you "wrong name" she dident notice....i think and she dident said anything....the internet girl called me and said she broked up with her bf...and that she missed me and our talks...and everything...the whole thing reached the pick when she came to me for 2 days....and we made love the whole night....afther 2 weeks she called me to say that she had found someone else...i asked who...and it was her ex....they wore back toghether i felt sad for a couple of days and my love for my new gf...grew..and grew... but afther several months...something happed....i started losing intrest...she wasent what i thought she was...everything was so boring ....i was going to her on dates...just coz she wanted not coz i wanted...in my opinion the love was gone...on my behalf...but we kept going...we went on vacation...and...it sucked so badly...for me...she said it was "fine" but it realy sucked...we argued all the time and no fun...meentime i met somebody else.. who actualy thought me the meening of love and what it does to you....im happy im sad..im i dont know anymore....it suks when coz im so far away...from her....i broked up with my gf explaind the situation but ..she dosent want to uderstand...she said she would change and stop beeing so anoying...i realy dont care abaut her but...im concerned abaut my new gf....she has some trouble explaining to her ex that it`s over...i mean that he calls her....and stuff...i was waching...her on web when her ex called and...she talked for 5 minutes with him...than she started crying and left the room..so i coundent see or hear what she was doing....it broke my heart...and i made me feel like shit...it hurt like never before...when i aked her..why...she said that she wanted to tell him why and how..alone. that really sucked for me like i said...and i dont know what to think what to do im stuck! if this turns out like im thinking it will...i onestly could not survive it. im a ****ing emotional wreck. i really need hellp this time....

[ExpoNovak]

Can some wise person please explain to me why the hell so many people are falling so hard for people that they have never even met in the flesh? I'm convinced that its a personal "I'm going to make you into what I want in my own mind whether that is who you are or not" thing. Convinced.

[eversoalone]

u think i know? u think i want to? jesus...this is ****ed up...i know her for 1 month and i love everysingle thing she does. she says everything.... and is not like i never been in a relationship before....coz i have quite an expiriance with this stuff.. and i just cant wrap my mind around this one...wtf is wrong with me1?!?!??!?!?!

[Gigabitch]

Well, if something is wrong with you, it's wrong with a lot of people, because we see this kind of thing all the time, here.

Get a grip, man.

I suggest you go and research some of the romantic poetry of the troubadours of the Renaissance and come to terms with the fact that Impossible Love is just one of those things humans do to themselves.

[muspi_2000]

there seems to be quite a number of ppl here who "falls in love" with strangers online..weird

[eversoalone]

somthing is wrong with me. im considering...ending it im tyred of this life...this pain this everything...i must be the stupidest man on the planet in an emotional way....there is just no way back. ived made my decizion1

[Gigabitch]

I believe very strongly that if someone truly wants to end their life, they should be allowed to do so. However, I don't think you would be posting here if that were, indeed, what you really wanted. You came here for help, not to freak out a bunch of strangers.

There's something wrong with just about everyone. People are complicated and ****ed up. How are you significantly MORE ****ed up than everyone else?

[eversoalone]

i think your right,....but still pls how should i handle this situation....it`s above me...is bigger than me...im losing my mind here....i raely feel that i have reached the bottom...

[Gigabitch]

Then the only way to go is back up.

Frankly, I think relationships are torture. They hardly ever work out. Doesn't stop me from being in one, though, does it? I've broken up with almost everyone I've ever been involved with. We all have.

Your gf should draw a line with her ex. She's not completely yours until he's out of the picture. I think you should insist.

[DoesntMatter]

somthing is wrong with me. im considering...ending it im tyred of this life...this pain this everything...i must be the stupidest man on the planet in an emotional way....there is just no way back. ived made my decizion1

If you don't kill yourself, you will have good days again, trust me. In other words, you can make it through.

[ExpoNovak]

Just curious ever, but how old are you?

[eversoalone]

im 22 and have been around the block....but..but this time....im complitly ****ed up.....i never shead a tear in my life for anyone...even my first love....and for this girl...il cry till i die...if i lose her...god damn she all i want and need... dont mistake me...for a guy that had only one girl in is life.....that`s why i Dont understand what is wrong with me

[Gigabitch]

Being 22 was one of the hardest years of my life. Not because anything momentous happened- just because being 22 is, well, ****ing hard.

This girl isn't the only thing you've got going on in your life, is she?

[eversoalone]

no she`s not...but she`s one of the moust important......i would say.....9 out of 10 as importance.....and the calls with her ex are killing me inside... really...really need help