2mnths NC, still cryn...i need help.. :''(

[dreamflyer]

hi all,
I don't know what to do anymore.

We broke up 2 months ago (only together 3 months), spoken hardly 10 words to her during that time, but ****. i don't know. I loved her so much, i still do. don't say u cant love someone after that long...because I know thats crap first hand. don't say i'm too young to love someone, because I also know thats crap.

I just need help. I've tried writing a letter to her (but not sending it), just outlining everything. how i feel, why it went that way etc.

All night tonight i've been thinking about her (today is her 18th), and i've just looked at her ball photos from when we started going out (i wasnt there), and i can't understand WHY i let her go.

Yea stupid old me was the one to end it, and it was the biggest mistake ever. I've been through absoloute hell the past coupla months.

I"m stil sittin here ballin my eyes out.

someone...should i send her my letter??? what should i do?...

[kelzchik1]

I know how you feel loving someone you may not know if they feel the same way, I've liked this guy for about 6 months. Then we lost contact with each other for about a month and a half. Not being able to see each other because of school load pressures as we go to different schools. It's not the best feeling and I found myself ballin my eyes out everynight.

Only today, being the holidays.. we talked. I started a conversation with him. I thought he hated me and might have done something wrong. But he actually felt the same way.

If you love her, you should at least find out how she still feels. It may be extremely difficult to send her that letter. Another approach might be ringing her up or talking to msn if you both have it? That also might be difficult.

I strongly urge you to at least try to talk to her, you might feel better afterwards.

[Gigabitch]

Dude, you wanted to have an LDR with someone you hardly knew- I still think it would have been WORSE to pursue that. Of course you miss her. Will you see her over the holidays?

[Ellynn]

I don't think you knew her long enough to actually love her, but you fell in love with the "idea" of her. I would let it go and move on. I know its easier said then done, but somewhere out there is another girl just waiting for you.

[dreamflyer]

see thats just it. I havn't just known her for a few months. weve been good good mates for atleast 12 months, might even be more than that.
I understand her better than alot of her mates do, she knows me backwards. I know a LDR would work with her (i think i've posted about that here already), and yes i would see her quite a bit. I would fly down (only an hour n a half) every few weekends if need be and spend the weekend with her.