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[anachronistic]

for those of you who don't know, my girlfriend broke up with me. i have a mixture of feelings right now. i'm not crying as much as i expected. why did she do it? because her friends and reputation are more important than me, as she refused to be seen with me at school events.

it was always like that, i never knew why. after two years of it, i finally got sick of it and demanded that she make up her mind, on what is more important.

technically she was my first official girlfriend. i had dates and friends with benefits before, but never a true love. she was also one of my best friends. so i have lost a lot with this relationship. it's going to take a long time to heal.

[Junket]

Oooooh, shit.

I was wonderin' if the things you were sayin' before were flags.

Let it all out man, anger, frustration, despair, whateva.

You got alot of people to lean on in 'ere.

[Gigabitch]

Yup. You're among friends. We can all commiserate.

[anachronistic]

tonight my brother and i played games together for the first time in a while... his girlfriend and he kept me company.. that was nice. i wrote my grandparents an email. i got in touch with one of my favorite cousins, and one of my old best friends.

i'm at the stage where you feel like something is missing. depressed; i am feeling a little better though. still waiting for her to return my calls and all..

last night i stayed up till 3 in the morning finishing the scrap book of memories i was going to give her for christmas. at six this evening, i went to the place where she worked. her boss was sweeping the floor. i walked past and said hi. i handed the book to my ex, who was standing behind the counter. she looked as though she was about to cry. a tear ran down my cheek. without a word, i turned around and left. everything was perfect. the feelings were perfect. the drive there was perfect. the music was perfect. the time was perfect. the moment was perfect. the romance was perfect.

i got in my car. i cried all the way home. i listened to 'right where it belongs' by nine inch nails.

i have been thinking about how life would be without her. pros and cons. if i see her with another guy though, i will flip. i know she isn't mine anymore, but still.

[Tiay]

*gives Moogle a hug*.. I'm so sorry to hear that.

[Junket]

You're doin' it right dude, keep us updated.

[Gigabitch]

You're acting like a man. Good for you. I wish everyone had as much dignity.

I'm sure this is really hard for her as well. She's young and she's not very strong. I'm glad you're giving her something to remember, not just the scrapbook, but the way you're acting. She'll never forget you.

[batista]

I am sorry to hear that moogle. Yes these things happen in life and are heartbreaking...

It's surely not easy and you can't just snap out of it without suffering from sadness.

But i am glad that you are man enough to admit how many tears you shed and it's very normal and in my book, shedding tears can't be avoided so easily at a break up, except if you truly didn't love the girl at all

[anachronistic]

today i wrote her mom an email. i gave my opinion on how this is being handled. i offered to sit and talk with her and the counselor if there was a chance we could still be even friends...

i highly doubt her mom will email me back. if she does, i will let you know how it turns out

[Mathias]

Mother ****er.

I'm really sorry, dude.

Now, I'm pissed off. This was going to be a good day, too.

Nobody ****s with my buddy. Time to kick some ass.

[anachronistic]

she musta got the text messages i sent her because it says she got them at the time school got out...

she hasn't responded... but she has play practice right now... she won't text her friend either... maybe she will say something. i am surprised that she even has her phone. maybe her mom changed her mind. who knows.

EDIT:

she wrote me an email saying she really wants to talk to me but her mom is watching her every move... kindof creepy. she said the diary thing i gave her is wonderful. she sent a kiss and a heart and said she is making me one.
what pisses me off though, is that her mom sent back the happy birthday card my mom gave my ex for her birthday. that was just RUDE and UNFORGIVABLE.

i was so upset that i decided to tell my mom what happened. i wrote her an email. i told her the situation, how i felt, and asked her to talk to the mom if she felt it would make a difference. she said ok. i am awaiting the news.

[jagmeow]

You are a most honorable person. This girl just hasn't seen it. Don't sweat it man. You are a great person. Just look at all the help you bring people on this forum.



It's about time you receive the!!!

[Gigabitch]

Moogle, what reasons are her parents giving for this? Did they find out you've been having sex with their daughter?

[anachronistic]

Moogle, what reasons are her parents giving for this? Did they find out you've been having sex with their daughter?

i'll pm you
....

and it's more like this, dude.

[Zach]

Im lost, so why is her mom pissed and watching her every move?

I think your quite the strong fellow to habdle it the way you are. Great Job.
I have just went throught all this, so don't feel alone.