I don't feel as bad as I did a month ago, but I can say I do miss him still. I believe 9 yrs just doesn't blow off into the abyss, but the space right now is good. I'm learning that I can be by myself and be fine. I do wonder about him still and even though it's only been 2 months since our last argument, I still get a little emotional sometimes. I still wonder if we have a future together, but right now I'm going out, having fun, and learning to build my self esteem. I love him deeply, and i'm sure he did as well, time is slowly healing. It's about time