It's so confusing!I need advice

[Bigcchen]

My girlfriend and I broke up in the middle of June. We both fell madly in love with eachother. But as soon as summer started she started playing softball for a summer league. She's an awesome athlete and softball is her passion. We had a lot of good times together and we had a certain bond that I really can't explain. We saw eachhother a lot and always had an amazing time together. But with this softball league she had practice everyday and traveled on the weekends. So we didn't see eachother as much. It was all fine until one weekend I was stressed out and all I could think about was her. I knew she was busy but I kept txting her asking how she was and what she was doing. I was sufocating her and she felt that I was being controlling . Which I was. So she said that she would talk to me later. The next day comes and she finally txt me and we decide to take a break until she was done with softball. So I went to he house to say goodbye in person and welhen I was about to leave she grabs me and hugs me and kisses me. So I left with a broken heart and was happy. I was so confused. So we continued to talk and about a week later she wanted to get back together. I agreed. It was fine while it lasted. Then she said her mom doesn't think we should date because she feels bad that my gf can't spend time with me. Her parents really like me especially her mother. So I was ok with the decision and went on with my life. But never forgot about her. I lost sleep everynight thinking about her. We talked occasionally and everything was fine. The about 2 weeks ago we went on a crazy ride. I saw her one day and she seemed very happy to see me. We talked for a while and we hugged and I kissed her cheek. She really liked that. So that night we talked for hours and we were as happy as could be. The the past couple of nights she decided to start sharing her feelings. She says that she cares about me and still has feelings for me. And she asked me how I feel. I said that I still like her a lot and really miss her. I told her that I had a lot to say but I didn't want to make things awkward. And that I didn't want to push her away. She said I would never push her away. So I asked her if she really did love me. She said yes and I was the first person she loved. But she didn't feel like that at the moment. I said that I felt the same way but I could love her again if something happened between us. She told me that she wanted to hang out before she left for south Carolina on a softball tournament. I said that it would be nice. But she stood me up like 4 times last week. So I was confused. I didn't want to harass her because I had an urge to keep texting her. So last night I told her that we shouldn't talk or see eachother for a while. It's a no contact message. I'm wondering if I made a mistake? How does she feel about me? Is their still hope for us? I truely love her and would be devestatex if I lost her for good. So I'm wondering how I could make thongs better and hopefully set a stage for us to reconnect? I couldn't go through all this trouble if I really didn't care about her. But i do and I'm now a different person. Much more stronger and independent. I really love her and I want her back.

[Cerby]

Ok, firstly, you dated for a month and a half. Your feelings are those of lust, not love, sorry to say. Secondly, you talk about all these great memories and that, but what can you actually forge in a month and a half? Honestly, not much that you can't get over in a few weeks.

This is clearly your first relationship.

This one isn't working, and you should in reality just let it go, but you won't. So I'd say let her come to you, because she will if she wants you. You should just focus on moving forward.

[Bigcchen]

My fault a year and a half

[maxmax]

It's so confusing! I need advice

Not as much as you need paragraphs.