In serious need of help

[davidlewallen]

Hello,

This is my first time on a relationship advice forum. Hopefully this will be the only time that it will be needed to come to a forum like this.

A little back ground first.
Chris and I met during my Junior year of High School (right at the end of school). Everything was going amazing.
We had so much in common and honestly I fell in love with him the first time I saw him.
Our relationship got more serious over my Senior year.
Now Im off to college. Chris moved in with me, long trip (NY to TX), as well did my best friend from NY.

Okay now the issue.
Recently I have noticed that he has been very irritable with me. We have been fighting more that what we would have been up in NY but
I think that is caused from the stress of moving, finding jobs, getting in to school, and a new environment.
The fighting isnt anything extremely bad. Usually just bickering that gets into an argument or petty stuff like that.
Since being here we have only had one major argument.

The other night we, the three of us, were walking home from going to the store. I joked around with him about the computer about how he bumped me off and now
I want on. He got angry about this. It put me in a bad mood because I couldnt understand why he snapped for me joking around with him.
I told him that I just dont understand why he has been so irritable with me lately. He replied with "Well dont bother me then". This pissed me off, I found it uncalled for.
Later that night me and my friend had talked a little about everything and she told me that I really need to sit down and talk to him about everything because she
is even worried about my relationship.
So that night when we went to bed I tried to get him to talk about everything. He told me that recently I have been "annoying". I guess hes talking about my sarcasm and
my joking-ness. I joke around with people but never mean anything that I say. He also felt that me joking around with him was putting him down and he didnt like that.
Thats something that can be fixed on my part and I plan on doing that.
He then went to say something but never finished. I kept on trying to get him to let me in a little but he just wouldnt. We dont have the best communication in our relationship
which I know is a problem. He doesnt like talking about his feeling. He says it makes him vulnerable. After getting mad that he brought something up but wouldnt tell me what it was
I decided to leave the room and let him be. I then got a text from him saying hes "been thinking about other guys". This happened once before, a few months into our relationship, but it blew
over. When he said this I felt like my heart had been ripped out. I couldnt believe that after everything we have gone though. The year + into our relationship he is getting feelings like this.

Throughout all of this I feel like its something I have done.
We havent had sex is a good while. He hasnt been his self. He doesnt tell me he loves me (only when I say it first). He has kissed me in a while (only when I kiss him first).

The next morning I woke up and he was already out of bed. I had gotten on the computer and saw a picture of this shirtless guy that was a screenshot off a phone.
I knew it was his phone the screenshot was taken from. This got me concerned and I went to try to find out who this person was. Chris's facebook was open and took
it upon my self to figure this out. I read through a message to one of his friends and it was talking about how he has been getting these feelings for other guys and how he doesnt know
what to do. He also told his friend that he downloaded an app called "Jack'd" (a gay hook-up app) and how he was talking to this guy but said that if this guy asked him to meet he would
have to break it to him that he is in a relationship.
This hurts me because why would he be going on an app to talk to other guys.
He also told his friend that he is "still young" and was talking about how being with me would mean I would be his last sexual partner and how he finds that odd I guess.
He also said that because he is still young he feels like he is "wasting it".

This hurt me deeply. I personally have only had two sexual partners including Chris and I honestly want to spend the rest of my life with Chris. He means the absolute world to me. The first
relationship I was in, well gay relationship, was with a guy who was in it only for sex. I had thought I fell in love with him until I met Chris and I finally knew what love actually felt like.
I could see my self only having Chris in my life and never thinking about someone else because I have everything I could ever ask for in a person.

I left that day to go sort out school stuff and let my friend know that I planned on leaving later that day to go down to my grandparents house about three hours away until work called me in.
I was destroyed by that was said and almost felt betrayed by all of this.

My friend had talked me into not leaving and staying plus I had a friend from NY coming to visit me (but couldnt make it the day of).


Im not too sure what to do . Right now Im kinda ramboling on and on and not able to completely get my thoughts out. Ive been a mess since this has happened and I need some advice on
what to do. Nothing is going right for me right now and I need help. If someone, anyone is able to give me some advice that would great. Im still thinking about leaving and hoping that will fix
things between us, give him a bit of a break I guess.

Just wanted to say sorry for the way this was organized. Not really in my best state right now.


Thanks in advanced

[AdminOnline]

is your problem solved yet?

[cheekxs]

ARE YOU STUPID DAMMIT.

how ols are for real/. how can you ask why would he download a app to talk to gays.
while you already told us what you saw on his fb.

stop asking stupidity.
you are blind or retard.

and no friend can tell you noting. all you do is your own choice.

people like that can bring a lot of diseases with them if they are having gay sex and sleep with you.
the only thing to do is to break up and have a talk just to know what is going on.

or keep acting like a retard.

[cheekxs]

And asking for advice all over the world and not using them or get to action is a waste of time!