I am a 16 year old boy and look average(not so good looking).I had crush with a girl for 2 years and I couldn't tell her because I was shy and I knew she wont like me as a lover.I used to tell lots of jokes in my music class where she was the only girl there.Every time I say a joke I looked at her and I watched her laughing(I joke very well) but didnt show any sign of love.She never talked to me(she usually don't talk with boys) and I didn't talk to her either.After that luckily she was in my high school class.There too I showed no sign of any love.for 2 years she was in m high school class.On the third year the bad happened her class changed.My class was on the upper floor and her on the down and I couldn't see her because I had no reason to go there.After some days i coudn't resist.I needed to see her badly so I gone down in the break time to see my friends but actually i needed to see her.It continued for sometime.One day one of my friend caught me when I was watching her secretly and I had to say that I loved her.He told the entire class about it(not her class myn).He told that it was alright to tell her but i was too scared to tell her.From that day I started to show some sign like my friends called my name when she was comming my way and she was a little confused and probably she knew it but she was ignoring me.One day one of her best friend knew that I loved her and she gone to tell her about it(i told her not to).She said to her that One guy loves you.By hearing it she was so angry that she started to talk to her so angrily.She said that she is not intrested to love wih any one.She did not tell that I was the one who loved her(i think she knew it).I was very upset and i decided to leave her and from that day I started to ignore her.One day one girl told her friends that I was the one who loved her.They said they already knew it.

Now I started to run away from her.When I see her I started to go away from there.Sometimes when i walk she and her friends starts to giggle like I have no dress.Some times she and her friends look at me when I look they turned and they say and laugh something(they must be probably making fun of me).One day the best friend of her who got angry on the incident above and her talked to each other.She said that not to repeat it and she said that I was guy who goes behind girls.She also said that I never saw a guy who is afraid like me.Well I got angry that I wanted to kill her.I sincerely loved her and she said something like it.From that day I started to ignore her like I hated her.Well I hate her anyway.

I was not mad at her because she didn't like me and one day this happens.Another guy who was looking good but he loved 2 other girls before and he left them too.He started to go behind her.She showed no anger to him and he also told that he liked her and she ws no angry at this time and she did not tell anything to him.But they were friendly too.She used to wave his hand to him.(I probably think she loves him).

What is the meaning of all this?
Are girls this heartless? and what do I call that bi***?

Sorry for my bad English as well