two years ago, I had a crush with this girl and everything went so smooth between us. However, there's something happen. One of my friend liked her as well and that makes the situation more complicated. The girl was a little confused because three of us are friends and coursemates back then, and still are coursemate now actually, just that the guy already stop hanging around with us. Back then, I was thinking I should give her some time to think and didn't really take further action because I dont want to give pressure to her...However, one day, I saw her with another guy(who already chase her for years but she already turned down him for years), and I decided to make myself clear to her, I mean how do I feel about her...Of course, like what I've suspected, she's already accepted that guy, he who she had been turned down for years. I totally dont understand what's the reason behind that....I can feel that she had the same feeling about me just like mine towards her, because she tweeted something on twitter which basically like some sort of regret tweet after I confessed to her...I regret for what I've done, instead of giving her more time and not giving pressure to her, I should have done more to keep her by my side but regrets definitely wont change the ending, right? And we still stay as friends after that...
After two years, which is now, their relationship starting to crack, i assume....because they unfriended each other a couple of times on facebook. To be honest, I still have that kind of feelings, it never fades. During this two years time, she posted some of their pictures online sometimes and deleted it soon after that, not quite sure what does that mean, what's the point of deleting it after you posted it? As for me, I had another bad experience with this playgirl. I was trying to move on, maybe a little bit too hard, hard enough to fall into the trap. After that shitty experience with that playgirl, we didn't really start by the way, because I found out that she's a playgirl, messaging and seeing multiple guy at the same.... anyway, back to story, after that bad experience, I realized that I didnt really move on..and when I saw the girl have problem with her boyfriend, I started to see some sort of hope, but i decided to wait for a while again to make sure that it's really like what I've been assuming. Apparently, both of them seems like getting back together again, when they are friends again on facebook and he even added her mother. I was like, what? A weeks ago, you just tweeted something like "enjoy the precious time alone" and now this?
A little addition to the story, all these years, practically after I confessed to her, somehow, I can feel that she still have that feeling towards me, based on her gestures, but I told myself that it was just my imagination.She seems too nice to me compared to others and apparently even nicer to me, during that period I was feeling down during the bad experience with the playgirl. She seems to know it alright. However, sometimes, I feel like she is somehow trying to avoid me especially on social media, I dont know why, she never reacted to my post(well we have a group on facebook, for our gang) and never seems to check it out as well, but its completely different when someone else posted in the group. she might not liking that post, but at least, she'll check that post.
I'm really confused right now, I really dont know what to do, We are going to graduate soon and leaving this place, I'm really want to be with her, I'm certain that she is definitely the girl I love but considering the current situation, I've decided to follow the flow so far...Did i do it right...?