My s/o other and I met online back in November of 2004 but we didn’t become committed and/or exclusive until just three months ago. Initially, I was very apprehensive and had a lot of reservation about our long distance relationship. He’s from Liberia, Africa (but originally from the United States) and I’m in Hawaii. He assured me that we’ll be okay and I thought it only makes sense to give our relationship a try. We corresponded daily via instant messaging, emails or phone conversations. There wasn’t a day gone by that we weren’t in touch through those channels of communication. Things were going great, we never had any arguments or disagreements. Everything was so perfect it almost didn’t seem real.
So now I haven’t spoken to him in a week not because we disputed or quarreled. He’s currently visiting his three children in CA as I’m writing this. He had visited me for the first time the prior week to celebrate my birthday. He wooed me, wined and dined me and I received expensive birthday gifts from him. The whole ten days that we were together, he took care of all accommodations and wouldn’t let me contribute anything as he knew I’m a struggling student. We had a wonderful time together. We learned good and bad things about one another, even each other’s annoying habits we have that didn’t know before. Again, things were blissful.
But since he left to CA, I received no phone calls but only a few short emails here and there to inform me he is busy out and about with his children and does not have access to the net. I have no way of contacting him while he’s in CA except through the net and since Friday, he hasn‘t returned any of my emails that I sent him. I’m trying to stay and remain optimistic and that maybe he is out and about enjoying his time with his children and perhaps he really doesn’t have access to the net as readily as he would like. However, something strikes me as odd that he still carries in his wallet a picture of him with his ex-girlfriend and three children.
All these scenarios are running through my mind and they make me seem insecure (as I mentioned above, I want to stay positive) and I’m beginning to think the worst. I’ve emailed him to voice my concerns but so far no responses from him. Another thought I had was that maybe he changed his mind about us and he wants to writhe his way out of my life silently hoping that I would get the message. I really don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to sit here and wait for his calls or emails. Perhaps I just need closure if he doesn’t want our relationship to progress any further.
Comments, suggestions even criticisms are welcome.