that was year April 2007 when i met him, i was still in love with my ex for 2 years that time, yet he accepted me, waited until i would be moving on completely and eventually fall for him...
may 2007, i left the town, but we're still communicating, so we end up having a long distance love affair, by the way, his name's Kenneth...
he said he will wait for me until i will be home, he's constantly texting me, calling me and all those stuffs, he's an almost perfect boyfriend, he's giving efforts for our relationship though we're far...
December 2007, i cheated on him, i got a boyfriend , i ditched him, telling him that he's so far and all those excuses so that he would just let me go. THAT new boyfriend left me, i called Kenneth and begging him to have me as a friend, he was there again, comforting me....
Eventually, me and Kenneth were okay again but then we're still far....
Things we're okay then, he was the greatest bf ever i think for a long distance relationship like ours...
Until October 2008, things were changed, the EFFORTS he usually gave was gone, he seldom calls anymore, when i ask him what's wrong, he would just divert the topic.
Feb 2009, i went home to surprise him and i found out, he was not in the town as well, i was so hurt that i ended up having an affair with a former schoolmate..
April of 2009, Kenneth's back to town, i found out that he went out of town to finish his studies. i asked his friends if he has a new girl, they said, all along he was faithful to me...
what i hate about him is the reason that he did not inform me that he left the town,...i thought he wanted revenge for the mistake I did last DEC.2007...i hate him for being cold last OCT 2008 as well, he's telling me that he was busy making himself successful while I'm away, but i was not buying it. Dont know, with my past before we met, i'm finding it hard to trust a guy.
now we settled things already, but I'm afraid that he'll know the affair I had with my schoolmate last February...
now, I'm hoping that he'll tell me that he committed mistakes as well while i was gone so that i won't be guilty anymore...
i hate myself for hurting him, but with my past before me and Kenneth met, i can't help but be a cheater sometimes.