My girlfriend and I did have something very special, perhaps more beautiful than anything I have ever experienced in my life. We gave each other equal passion and respect, and we actually tolerated many big differences to come together. It was a really beautiful relationship, or at least I'm thinking it was.
But just lately she has developed deep feelings for one of my close friends, and it is that simple. I made the mistake of not giving her enough emotional support when she really needed it, and I lost her, suddenly and stupidly. We broke up, but we stay friends.
I neither hold any grudge to her nor the other guy. They seem so happy together, and also they are both trying to cheer me up and giving me support. I feel lucky to have met people like them. I totally do want her back, though I wouldn't try to pull back the impossible and interfere with their happiness.
My problem is that, I can't cope with this loss. Every night I experience terrible haunts of the memories we shared together. I could remember the exact sweet words we gave each other, the pain we shared, and the promises we made... So many of them were dawned at me, one by one, and I can't sleep. I keep thinking about her every time, and even right now. Sometimes I just can't believe what just happened, and as I recall, I flinch in disbelief. I tried to share this to everybody I trust, but it didn't work. I even shared this with her, and she couldn't do anything else but saying sorry.
I know one day I will have to get over this, but my previous affairs never pains me as much as this did. This is destroying my welfare, and I have so much to do ahead. I just want to keep my head up and get over this so that I can continue with my life. But this loss seems too heavy.
I hope you guys will shares with me your experiences, and what you have done to cope with such losses. I really appreciate your time to read my post.