I posted a while ago about having crush on my boss. In the meantime I have met a great guy who makes me laugh and we get along really well.
Until yesterday. I really was doing so well to get my boss out of my head. It got to the point where I wasn't thinking about him all day and the dreams stopped and everything. I actually had got to the point where I began to think he was an arse and really wouldn't say much to him and went about my business ignoring him.
So yesterday it's starts with him coming to do his session and we had a discussion about me having to buy a printer for my laptop as I needed to print some stuff out. He was advising me what to get and being all nice to me for the first time in ages. Then he says to me "oh come round and you can print stuff out on my printer anytime" (he lives down the road from me). I was quite taken aback as previously he invited me around for "coffee" but when I was supposed to go, he said he'd never received my message (another long story). I then asked him when would be convenient to come around to print the stuff out and he said come around after work.
So I found myself rushing to get home, showered and made myself look pretty just to go around there. My heart was pounding the whole time and I was so nervous. So I went round to his place, played with his cat and we sat down and had some tea and talked about work.
It was all very natural and comfortable and we can talk about anything and everything. He tells me a lot of confidential stuff and I probably know more about him than anybody else does, as he's so private. I even offered to look after his cat for whenever he is away and he was really happy with that.
I don't understand him. I really don't. Now all these feelings have come back when I'm supposed to be seeing this new guy who really likes me. Is it a case of we all want what we can't have? Maybe my boss just wants to be friends and doesn't think of me in any other way? He confuses the hell out of me. Sometimes I just want to tell him I like him, but it's unprofessional and until I leave, if ever, it's really not an option.
It doesn't help when other people say we'd make a good couple. I'm not quite sure if it's general knowledge that I am seeing someone and he has found out which is why he's being friendly? I just really don't know. I'm an attractive girl who really hasn't had much problem attracting men. As big headed as it sounds I've never really had to try that hard but with him it's like he's reisisting me and I don't know why.
I know about the implications of work relationships but surely if you like someone it shouldn't matter?
I have no idea. I feel like I'm going mad. PLEASE HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!