I didnt know where to go for help so i turned to this site but i desperately need help and i can't focus on my school properly because of this issue. I apologize if my story is a bit long but i though to give as much details to get this problem sorted out properly. thanks in advance.
I travel to college by car and so i carpool a lot by driving my friends around and if they live near me they get a ride home. one of my classmates who is a girl was getting a car rides home from me last week and she shocked me with a question. we were both alone in the car and just had a good long conversation about music until she poped the question if she could come to my house. i was so shocked i didn't know what to say! i don't have problem with girls i mean i have dated women but none ever ugly and i never really considered this girl anything more than a friend. Anyway i was lost for words and i ended up saying nothing and then she smiled at me asking again that maybe i could make her a drink at my house. Starting to feel very uncomfortable i was searching for what to say and so as to not to hurt her feelings i said i am busy with school assignment tonight and perhaps tomorrow. To even worsen things off just before she got off the car she gave me hug and said "see you tomorrow then". i don't know what to do now if my friends find out about this i will be a big joke as they have always seen me with much better looking girls and also i personally don't feel attracted to her. anyway the day after i was trying to avoid her and told my friends that i have to go somewhere and i couldn't drive them home. However i ran into her in the staircase and she started talking to me and i really couldnt manage to blow her off. She followed me to the car and easily welcomed herself inside. I asked if she was getting off at her home and she said there is some burger place we should go eat. I was relieved thinking that she is not going to my house after all. However she demanded to pay for my food and said i can cover next time. feeling a bit uncomfortable again i agreed. After that the car ride home was very different from any other. She got into the car first and just as soon as i did and closed my seatbelt she kinda leaned towards me and kissed me on the lips. i don't know why but i was confused and somehow i was expecting this and so i returned the favor. For me that kiss felt very empty and it wasn't at all like the kisses i got from my ex which made my heart race for example. But still i was nervous and i figured that i have proly made a big mistake. after the kiss i immediately started the car and raced out of the parking lot lol. the drive back however was not awkward anymore and i kind off felt more relaxed but still confused. She was smiling a lot but we didn't speak a word. until we got close to my house where she said if i have any drinks at home and i just was like oh my god she is not letting this go. Strangely though i wasn't annoyed anymore and i agreed to take her home. all in all i ended up sleeping with her last night and we went to school together the next day. we were both late to class and arrived together. my friends have become suspicious and even worst she is with me everywhere now and im kind of scared she will say something or hug or kiss in front of my friends. i want to get away from her but at the same time i have developed feelings for her. she hasn't brought up that night at all. we kinda just hang out like before as friends but she is starting to grow on me. I mean after that incident i have started to realize that she is a very nice girl and yes her face is ugly but she is not fat and has nice body even though she is only 5'3". because of this i offered to give her a ride home again yesterday and before getting off the car she finally brought up the night and started saying how she really likes me and she had lot of fun that night and she thinks im a great guy. to my surprise she also explained that she knows she is ugly and i don't want my friends to find out. she said if i want we can keep this relationship a secret. to make matters worst i asked her to spend this weekend at my house. now the weekend is getting closer and i really regret asking her that, i don't know what to do i don't wanna break her heart cause she is my friend and also im scared she will inform my friends. should i keep dating her in secret or just blow her off? either way i don't want my friends to find out EVER! how do i do this? plz help thanks.