My boyfriend and I are long distance. When he is here, everything is fine. I'm still a virgin and trying not to rush things, but we fool around a lot and I'm able to get him off. I haven't been able to orgasm yet...but I think this is more my problem than his since I can't even get off when I masturbate.
Lately he has been really horny. I'm less horny than he is. I think it might be because I am on birth control, and that can have effects in lowering sex drive. It might also be because I haven't experienced sex yet and he has, so he knows what he wants but I don't. I've also been really stressed recently and I'm normally really busy with school.
Anyway, lately he's been wanting me to be more expressive about how I feel about him sexually and telling him when I masturbate and think about him. The problem is I don't do it that often, and I don't want to lie about it just to give the appearance that I'm horny when he happens to be. I also feel like I don't know the right words to use when I talk to him. He is usually very vague and I would like to be more direct. I've told him I need things to be more direct but I haven't actually sat down and figured out the right words to use (slang/not slang). I guess it would be a good idea to address that.
I just feel bad because we are apart most of the time and I don't want things to deteriorate between us because of this one issue. Every other aspect of our relationship is fine. And when we are together it's really natural and there are no problems.