Commitment issue or just cold feet...or something else!?
Me and my bf are planning on moving in together in the summer, it involves me moving a few hundred miles away and starting again really. I'm happy to do that- ive had enough of the area i live in, it has too many memories.
After a little blip a few weeks ago, i'd go as far as to say that things are fantastic between us at the moment. He is everything i want and more and i am genuinely happy with him.
The last couple of years I pushed previous bf's away and didnt let them get close- i pretty much avoided commitment.
The thing is, lately i seem to be having so many negative thoughts, like when sorting out the practical stuff for the move i suddenly think whats the point, we will split before then anyway. Then i start doubting whether I actually want to be with him, in my head i have thoughts circling around trying to find little reasons that would make things go wrong (i never find them though). I dont have them that often- probably once every few days, its almost as if i panic and these thoughts kind of spiral out of control in my head.
I dont know if that makes sense or not? I hope so. I guess i just want to know whether other people think these are normal feelings or not...
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