I broke up with my high school sweetheart after 7 months of dating about 2 months ago. Im still deeply hurting. I cant handle this. The first night we broke up I had almost no control, i almost ended my life. To this day I cant find peace of mind. Tonight I was walking around to get out of the house and I saw her with her friends smoking pot and drinking (two things i hate the most). My first response was downright scary. I lost all feeling of remorse. I hopes shes having fun, but I hope she realizes what she has done to me some day. My thoughts race of what to do with myself. I have never considered myself insane but this is making me question my sanity and self perseverance. I, need help. The tears roll. I cant do this.