okay, ill try to keep it short, we dated 5 years ago for 2.5 months, broke up, had sex rarely off and on for 2. we talked about getting back together a half a year ago, i told her i wasnt ready. she pressured me into it. then i soon broke up with her 2 weeks later (i wasnt ready). during the 2 years we were apart for a short time was in a relationship with a foreigner. I told her all he wanted was to marry her and get citizenship, she broke up wtih him, and it turned out true at the time. 6 months ago, when we broke up, she got back with him, hes married (she knows) and lives 1000 miles away, she says shes happy, i told her i wanted her back and that the last time i wasnt ready, she doesnt believe what i say b/c i said the same things last time to get her not to marry the guy (shitty i know, but its all i could do cuz i didnt want her hurt) but she hasnt said anything like "we are done", "there is no chance", or anyting pointing out we are getting back together, she says shes "happy" but the ironic thing is now, i want to spend the rest of my life with her in all the true senses. i cant sleep at night, i think about her all the time, and i want her back and ill do anything
what do i do?
what do i say?
please help
and btw i am 24 she is 21