I have been dating a woman for over a year now. I love her and plan to have a future with her, the feeling is mutual but her words sometimes confuse me. She is 47 and I'm 33. When we met I was told she was recently seperated from her husband and going through a divorce. From the very beginning she has been upfront with me and very open. She admitted to having an affair twice in her 20 year marriage, thus the reason for divorce.
Last week we were talking about living together and how I sometimes work long hours ect... she said she might get lonely and have and affair in a joking mannor. This is not the first time she has joked about possibly cheating on me. I've told her numerous times I feel disrespected by this and hurt. Knowing what I know about her past doesn't help matters and I have a difficult time trusting her, or atleast in the future.
I see a selfish side to her and a immature side, she completely deny's she is both of course.
To make matters worse we live 75 min from each other. We talk a lot when were not tog so I don't feel she is seeing someone else. I want to trust her, but she doesn't make it easy for me?
I plan to move in with her with in the next year where she is currently living. Can't help but think I'm making a mistake leaving everything behind for her.
Help