Living in the past is fruitless I know that much, but I can't help but remember my past and just break down. Here's my story, I am not the type to easily like someone, especially when I didn't get close to guys because of my father and past guy friends I had and the fact that my life was so lonely and I felt like dying. I had lost all sense of communication with my family and friends. In grade 9 this guy suddenly comes and talks to me, taking so much interest in me. Even when I ignored him because of something stupid he did, he tried so hard to get my attention. This was the first time anyone had given me such attention and it made my day every time I talked to him. He made me feel like enjoying life again, and I didn't feel sad anymore. I thought he was a really great miracle that happened. I was even happier when we started going out in late grade 10, but after a month of dating things got pretty rough. Later on he became really close with another crowd, a crowd so different from what I was used to. All preppy and gossipy I was surprised when he started to become like that. He started to neglect me and well I talked to him about it and he wanted a break and that we could start of as friends and date again. I didn't see that happening so I know it's over, I'm once again left alone, I still text him, but it hurts 'cause we don't talk like we used to. Now I'm feeling alone and depressed again after my false happiness. Having almost fallen in love with him, my hearts in shreds I don't know what to do anymore. He was my first crush, boyfriend and first true friend. How can I forget that?