@ Neo:
well what i felt bad about losing the most out of our relationship was him as a friend.. besides being lovers we were great friends.

yeah, I can see how the line between being friends and being together may be blurred in our situation but its not always about sex. We have hung out a lot and it didnt always result in sex but the attraction and feelings are pretty evident
between us so it leads there sometimes.

he didnt want to be friends with me because he said it would be difficult for him to stay broken up with me if he still had my friendship.. He told me he still had a lot of love for me and it would be weird. I left him alone for a while after he kept telling me he couldnt do it... i figured there was no point in asking anymore... but a few days later he was calling me and asking me when it would be ok to hang out... and its been like that since.
Its weird.. he allows himself to get really close to me and enjoy my company and then completely pulls back and disappears again...