So, I just moved to Portland Oregon about 3 months ago, the same time that I met 2 out of the 3 roommates that I have (the 3rd roommate is my best friend). Two girls, one guy...
The guy is probably one of the coolest guys I have ever met, and when I met him I knew we'd be awesome friends, plus roommates, which is totally what ended up happening.
When we moved into our new house, he didn't have a bed, and so he slept in mine, we felt that comfortable with each other already (totally platonic, but letting him do this was probably my mistake.).
One night we ended up getting pretty drunk and we started fooling around (i'm single ya know? I figured it wouldnt hurt as long as the other roommates didn't know, which would be SUPER EMBARRASSING). After the next couple times we started actually having sex, and now we've been having sex for the last month now, pretty regularly, even though he has his bed now. We even take showers together...cuddle...kiss...It's WEIRD, and I feel like it should stop but it just feels so natural and comfortable and I really like him, I just know he doesn't feel that way about me because he constantly talks about his ex girlfriend and what not.
Anyway, This is totally bizarre and abnormal for me. I've never had casual sex with someone before, ESPECIALLY a roommate. We do everything that my last boyfriend and I did, but we just don't go on dates, don't hold hands in public, or even tell anybody that this is going on. it's a HUGE secret.
My question is....am I completely irrational for letting this happen? Should I even be allowing this? And if not, how do I go about making it stop without ruining the awesome friendship/roommateship that we already have?
PLEASE HELP
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