Hello,
I am curious about other people's experiences (male or female) on the following matter. Sorry about the length of the post, but I hope you read it all.
First a short history: I am in a happy and meaningful relationship. Me and and my girlfriend have been together for 3 years and are currently living together. She has been in previous longer relationships, but for me she is my first real girlfriend. Neither of us had had sex prior to our relationship and it has been fun to experiment together and I think we are pretty good at it by now. We are not afraid to try new things or ask each other's preferences. I would say the quantity and quality of our sex life is good.
However, one thing I keep thinking is how would the sex be with a different partner (as probably majority of men think?). Before her I have had chances to have sex with other women, but I have always turned them down, because it didn't feel right. But now that I am experienced and more confident about my abilities, I constantly keep thinking of having sex with someone else. Somebody else with different type of body, with different shapes or size of body parts etc. (I know it sounds like I am only thinking of the looks of the surface). I keep thinking that I wish I had more sex and experienced more before meeting her. Just a feeling of wishing to explore more.
I am not thinking of cheating, because I would never do that and would never like it if someone did it to me. I keep thinking that if I end up spending, say, the rest of my life with her, am I going to live the life with only having one sex partner? I know eventually she wantsmarriage, but I am hesitant to commit to her, because of my feeling of exploring more. I don't want to keep her waiting, if I know am not going to marry her, because that would break her heart even more. But I also don't want to break up, because it is a lot of fun living together and I like spending time with her.
Why is it so hard to settle, even though I am in a happy relationship?
Any comments or experiences are welcome and appreciated! I am thinking this is quite normal to feel this way, and just want to get other people's opinions.
Thanks so much!