We met about 2-3 weeks ago, had sex of a casual nature right off the bat.
Since then, we've continued to do this. Our encounters typically consist of him talking about various aspects of his life, and me listening (I do not like to speak often), and having sex.
At first, I thought he was cool but had no feelings for him. Now, he's grown on me gradually, but very quickly. I cannot explain why because I don't understand why myself, but as I thought more and more about it, I came to realize that my strong feelings of affection for him as a person (not just as a penis) could be described as a developing love.
Since I believe in honest communication once I know someone, I told him this, and asked if he would be my boyfriend. It went something like this:
Me: "Hey."
Him: "Yeah?"
Me: "Do you want to be my boyfriend?"
[Insert Awkward Silence Here]
Him: "Umm...I don't know..."
[Awkward Silence Continues]
Then I changed the subject to something else to get him talking about something else. I guessed he was thinking about it so I gave him some time. Toward the end of the night, he still hadn't answered the question, though. So we continue with the script hours later:
Me: "So, um, how do you feel about the boyfriend thing?"
Him: "Umm...I don't know...(mumbles stuff about how he just got divorced and that's kinda exclusive)..."
Me: "Oh. Well, I think you should know that I love you." (In hindsight, probably should not have told him so).
Him: "Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! That's a heavy word! Um, I don't want to hurt your feelings or anything, but you just met me. I think you're just confused..."
Me: "Okay. Just forget I ever said anything."
A few minutes after that conversation, sex occurs. Probably the best sex we've had so far, IMO.
Sometime after that:
Him: "I'll tell you what. When I get a free weekend, we'll go somewhere together. Just me and you."
Me: "Okay."
And the night continues as normal. Everything continued as normal after that. This happened a few days ago.
Maybe I screwed up telling him that. But I'm more confused now than I was before...what is your take on this conversation?
Really, I don't get what the issue is. He despises his ex-wife and talks about how much he hates her all the time, so I'm guessing he's not still in love with her. He told me he hadn't been with a girl in some 7 or 8 months before me, so it seems like the chances he's involved with a bunch of other people is a bit unlikely (but I could be wrong?). Like I said, I don't understand anything about that conversation. I think I was pretty clear, but he was as unclear as he could possibly be. I still don't have a vague idea of where he stands.