First off I'm 40 and been divorced twice and have had plenty of sex partners during, in between and after marriage.
Problem is that I took a 3 year hiatus since my last gf to soul search and find myself again.
Well a couple weeks ago, I was having an awesome time at a Halloween karaoke night at a bar.
I sang and felt like David Lee Roth that night. No holds barred for sure and ended up at an after party till 6am trying to hook up.
The next day a random woman messaged me on fb. That's where it gets good. Guess I was dancing up a storm with her and a few other chicks.
So we talk a bit and found that she was really into me because of something I said that night to her that night. We were both wearing full zombie make up
so had no idea what she really looked like under it all. After a few messages, I find that she's married but not happy. I was playing the smooth talking alternative.
We talked all week on fb for countless hrs until she picked up a cell just to text me while we work. Coming fri. she came to my place before we both
went to the same bar. We were so hot together until she left with her hubby to the same bar.
We had arranged that we would not interact much while there but wait till her hubby leaves. Sparks flew like all hell again after and we walked back
to my place after holding each other. We both had a few drinks but she was much more tipsy. I had to pee and she followed me into the bedroom.
We then laid together caressed, fondled and played like highschool teens. She made me promise that I would not have sex with her because she wanted to
feel everything properly. We were very hot and heavy but pants stayed on and I never tried to push it further. After what felt like a lifetime but such
a small fraction of time, she had to go home as not to raise suspicion to her hubby. It was very hard letting her go as she is so beautiful, in fact
the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. She is 28, perfect body, very pretty face and an awesome personality. I am 40 and a little overweight.
This was confusing at first because I was out of the game so long that I felt like I had nothing to offer someone like her.
Today she showed up again almost unexpected because her hubby was keeping an eye on her. Well tonight went the next step and we both
performed oral sex on each other. She was naked and had such an absolute perfect body in every detail, even the dimples above her but.
The whole ordeal was mind blowing as I had no one suck me for at least 8 months and she has never squirted before. We spent so much time
talking after cuddling and touching that I felt we are a couple. It took forever for her to have to go back home.
This fri. she wants to spend all afternoon with me. I am going insane with lust and love you have no idea. I can only assume that fri. will
be the day she can feel me inside her, I hope. She wanted to take things slow and for me, this is a turtle pace. Never had I had to wait for sex before.
We live in a small town and her car was on my driveway twice already. Many people know me as I work in the public eye.
Why do I have to be so careless? I can say I love her already and really want her bad. Is it lust or is it love? She is married and shit will hit the fan soon.
I can't stop because this is just too wild, crazy and daring. Who knows, maybe the chase is better than the catch but can't see any alternative
but to have the time of my life while it lasts. I was seriously wishing my balls were cut off or a bullet to the brain sometimes. Anyone have any possible advice?
Anyone been through this on here?