I met this 31 y/o single & unattached man in a dating website last early march 2012. At first I'm not interested because he was too young for me, by the way i'm 44, a widow with grown up kids. Luckily, i don't look like old....people say i look like in my early 30's. I discourage him because of our age gap. But he is so insistent in courting me telling that age doesn't matter to him. And maybe because i find him nice and sweet, he became my boyfriend end of march..a constant chatmate, exchanging text messages, calls at random time especially at night and until wee hours in the morning. We both had our own business at home so we do a lot of communication from time to time. And from there, some feelings grow more. The following month, April, first time we personally met....then we do date every once, twice a month..and still, everyday we communicate...felt d love from him as i fall in love with him...
Come the 2nd week of sept, after scrutinizing his mother's facebook account, i saw an fb joint name bearing his nickname and a girl's name...upon checking thouroughly, i felt that he is my bf so i immediately contacted him and ask about what i saw. At first, he was in silence but i insisted an answer, he replied that it was the account created by her gf bearing their both nickname so it was confirmed that he had a gf which is younger than him and they were going steady for 3 yrs coming Jan.15, 2013. At that time, i asked him for a breakup but he doesnt want me to leave him and said he loves me so much and not his gf. He asked me to give him 2 months for him to break up with his gf. And because i love him so I gave him a chance, even loving him hurts me a lot ... our relationship continues. The same relationship as we were before but there were petty quarrels involved because i used to get jealous.
But 2 months had passed, no breakups had happen between him and the girl because according to him he had no courage to tell her and pitied her and also found out that their relationship is known through their friends and relatives; ours is a secret one... At this time only I realized that he fooled me now that i am deeply engrossed in love with him.
Now, my big problem lies here, i am pregnant going to 7 weeks fetus.. i thought i wont be because i am already 44. I told him about this and he still want to keep it a secret until the baby come out. I, too, want to keep this secret from my children and my relatives and my late husband's relative because it will be a very big burden for me especially I am so stress now. We went to an Ob-gyne doctor last Jan. l0 and told us that i am at high-risk pregnancy.....I asked him to get rid of his gf and tell his relative about me but he doesn't want to. Maybe because he can't hurt his gf or still love her, i don't know because he used to tell me that he doesn't love his gf anymore... or maybe because he had no courage to tell his friends and relatives because he will be blame by everyone that he is very unfaithful. He is so very undecisive and confused... From then, i noticed his quite coldness, until i confronted him why he is acting that way and told me that he losses his love for me a month after i learmed about his gf and that was last October 2012... i was deeply hurt so i cried and cried in front of him, out of nowhere he said sorry for what he said which is not true, he said he loves me still...He told me also that if i will tell it to his relatives, everything will be disordered and he might be gone and away so i might not see him anymore. So i kept in silence again because i don't want him to be gone.
Now, what i feel is, he is just pretending that he loves me so that i may not tell his sister and relatives that i am pregnant.... what shall i do? I am thinking of letting his sister know what his brother have done to me without him knowing it and also to let his gf know too that his bf is unfaithful...i know i will be in the losing end in any way so to get even with him, i want him also to suffer the consequence... Is this the right thing to do or will i just have to keep silent? I still love him and i think i can't live without him but i know he is not in love with me anymore he is just concern with the baby that is why he still in contact with me.... What shall i do?