Hello, I'm in need of some advice. So I just recently realized I have strong feelings for a coworker..
It started off as nothing but a physical attraction for her. We've always had a flirtacious type of work relationship. Like teasing each other and making each other laugh. She actually was the one to even start this kind of relationship. Everything would end when work was over, I really wouldn't even think about her after work. Anyways, it's been 6 months since we've been working together and I can't get her out of my head.
People would make jokes about us being together and I didn't think much of it. She would do things that would show everyone that she was interested in me. Other coworkers would come up to me and tell me she was into me. Although whenever we interacted outside of work, she was always brief and dismissive showing me that maybe she's not interested in me after all..Some time went by and nothing really changed until last month. She asked me one day if I had a girlfriend and I told her yes. Once I told her that, she's started acting really weird for that day. She still remained flirty with me. I love my girlfriend and she is a beautiful, all around great woman; but our relationship has been really rocky lately. I never thought I could have feelings for 2 women..
I had dinner with her a few days before New Year's as nothing more than just that. She was always complaining that she was so lonely during time off, so I'd figure I'd invite her out. Dinner was great but she would send me signals just like she always did during work and then said "See.. I'm not so bad", as if she's been waiting for this. A few days pass and she deletes me from facebook as well as all the other guys at work. I didn't think much of it, until I found out she is now seeing someone. She avoided telling me that's why she did it and had another coworker tell me. She says she needed to be good now.
Ever since then, I can not get her out of my mind. I think about her at all times and I even dream about her. I don't know what it is that I'm so attracted to about her. A few days ago my friend tried to talk to her about me in an effort to get some answers and she said she doesn't see me that way (like a boyfriend type). I was crushed. I'm not even an emotional kind of guy and I've been so depressed. Even though things could never work because of our job, I still have feelings for her and I can't help it. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have to see her everyday.. As if that wasn't enough, I see her all the time after work. We don't even live close to each other and I saw her driving by today.
I figured it would pass but it's been 3 weeks and I still feel the same way. I know how to deal with breakups but how do I deal with this if I've never even been with her? I've never had feelings for someone who didn't have feelings for me. I just want to forget about her but can't.