What is this anomaly in our mind that causes us to push away people the closest to us and give our attention to someone who doesn't really need it? So many friends are dealing with so many issues, people who showed that they deserve my time and attention and somehow I give them very little. This girl who refused my heart with whom we still speak as friends only has to go online and I will spend half a night with her. When she was sick I wrote her every day, then I almost forgot buying flowers for my mothers birthday. Wish I could express how angry I am at myself, yet somewhere in my chest it feels like the right thing to do. Any body know of a good way of putting myself on a right track here?
I know it is probably because I am young (25) and don't see what matters the most, but I do still somewhat understand what does and what doesn't
Thank you!