Ermm how should I start this..
-We become really close since beginning of this year and have known each other for past 1.5 years. Studying in the same uni overseas and are in the same gang of friends.
- Everyone can tell we both like each other. A day after Valentine he asked me to be his gf but I rejected cause I am just scared. Both 20. Haven't been in any relationship after my puppy highschool love 5 years back. He has never been into one before thus really wishes to.
- Told him I will give him an ans by the end of this summer. But we ended up making out recently, cuddling and kissing. I felt guilty cause things are too rush.
- That's why I always become emotional and ridiculous in front of him, treating him hot and cold once in every while and this is making both of us tired.
-I don't know how to go on so we agreed to just remain like really normal friends for the next one and a half month till before summer starts, and we will see how things go. I don't know if it's a good idea cause I have been crying as it's really suffering for me. And I know it's suffering for him too.
-It's hard at this time, but I secretly wish I can use this period of time to sort things out and get over this feeling for him and eventually realizing what I want, cause really, I hate dramas and just wanna live a simple life, & I don't think I am suitable to be in a relationship.
-Things are so rush, I don't know if I should accept this relationship. Any advice are welcomed
P/s: Instead of distancing myself from him completely, we just talk and chat normally like good friends, give each other support & companion, and everytime we part, we still hug lightly like friends do. Idk if this's helping, or I should really have all the time by myself so that I could see things clearer.