Hello,
I desperately need your help here.
There is this girl that I see at the library. I fell in love with her the millisecond I saw her, and since I see her everyday it only gets worse. We are total strangers, so I couldn't talk to her. However, she sent me mixed signals.
The first time, I noticed that she was looking at me every now and then (without me looking) this gave me hope.
At a later time, she was getting inside the library and noticed me looking at her. She immediately switched directions and went away. This made me realise that I was just a creepy guy and I tried to force myself to not look at her not even for a second.
However, afterwards, I was at the library busy in my work and I noticed someone looking at me from very far away, and it was my crush.
HOWEVER, a few days later, I was walking by in peace and I saw her. She gave me a really bad look (and I was really messy that day). I realised that she didn't like me. I felt insulted and I bought new clothes, shoes, and I had a haircut (my intention wasn't even to impress her.)
The next day, I was at the library, and after 10 minutes I realised that she was sitting really close to me (this seat was empty, she never sits there, and she left her friends who were still at the same spot where she used to sit).
I didn't talk to her and almost completely ignored her (except for a few glances at her I couldn't help avoid) because I still thought that she didn't like me and I didn't want to bug her or to be considered a creepy guy.
The next day, I noticed her looking at me from far away, more like staring at me, and she got embarrassed when we made eye contact. I didn't attempt to talk to her or anything either that day. '
I tried my best to not look at her, but when she's around I can't help it sometimes.
However, the last 2 days she disappeared. Today I discovered that she was alone very far away, and in a position where I can't see her.
I'm confused. First, if she's not interested in me, why does she keep looking at me (even when I'm far away, and not even knowing she's there)
Second. Was she trying to avoid me by sitting alone so far away where I can't see her? Afterall, I did absolutely nothing to bug her and when she started to sit closer I tried my best to not come in eye contact with her or anything.
I'm extremely sorry for the long message but this is a situation that is ruining my entire life.