This is like the saga that just won't end. lol
So, back to the guy, his out of state whatever, and me. As reported earlier, I scrapped meeting, only because he seemed like a hot mess heaving rebounding. We had NC since FRI, until yesterday, when he started texting me again.
He was a little hostile, accusing me of talking about him with some people on the sports website, and acted like a jealous boy, saying things like, "oh, I see you've been talking to your BOYFRIEND so and so about me, because he's been rude to my posts since MON." Um, no. I told him I had not discussed him with anyone on there (truth), and that his secret was safe with me, and anything that transpired would stay in the vault, and his girl would never be the wiser. I then told him that I wanted to thank him for what happened (or didn't - lol), because it made me reconsider the guy I was dating before I started talking to him, and that I was hopeful for a reconciliation, and said that he was not my friend, my lover, nor my problem, as my focus was now the former paramour. He then wanted to talk, and started asking me more about me going back with him. Now, this is all truth about talking again with the other guy, but I admit, I probably made it sound more intense, just because I was tired of his push/pull crap.
Anyhow, I get this email from him last night, and I'm excerpting part, for brevity, as he wrote a VERY long email:
Hey Name,
I wanted to write you and tell you everything that was running through my head. Writing this while it's still fresh and before too much time has passed is important. Also, I want to preface this with I'm not trying to string you along, I don't have other motives, and I'm writing from the heart and being as genuine as I can be. I swear on my children's lives this isn't just a bunch of bullshit for some kind of angle.
I knew I had crossed over into a place where feelings were starting to develop with you, and I couldn't uphold my end of the bargain. I cared about you and I knew there was a possibility of hurting you at that point, because we were chatting a lot, feeling the chemistry and making plans to meet up for drinks. I know in my heart that we were both going to see each other romantically, and it would be game over.
The reason I am telling you this isn't to try to save face for myself, but I wonder if you truly realize how special you are. I think you know you're unique, but maybe not as much as you should. I've never met someone like you. We have the same political ideals and you love politics, that's so rare in a female. You stand up for your ideas and aren't afraid to take on people even on race, also rare for a female. You're smart, sexy and wildly attractive; I can only imagine how amazing the sex must be and have had a glimpse into it. You're into sports, and can pretty much hang with your significant other like a bro. You're logical, but spiritual, you are a good communicator, you're like a dream come true. That is the temptation that was before me and I've never come close to giving into a temptation until I met you. You've said I'm not emotionally available, but I am emotionally available and I know myself better than most people will ever know themselves. I spend a lot of time reflecting on life, my feelings about things, and playing out scenarios in my head. The problem is that my emotions belonged to someone else.
I came to a few conclusions from our situation on Friday and over the weekend. The first was if I was willing to try and back away from something I knew could be great(you); I must really care about the girl I'm with. I know you've said that I never would have talked to you in the first place, but I can't take that back. I didn't know what I was in for when we first started talking or how the chemistry between us would grow so fast. All I know is that I care about her and I can't break her heart. We haven't said I love you, but we are both in too deep. I decided I would move to Colorado her state to be closer to her. I found a place nearby, and will be moving there September 1st.
I really hope you are wrong about my relationship not working out. Not just because it would be a waste of time and emotions, but I would hate to think I missed out on an opportunity with you as well. Sometimes timing is everything and in this case it just came down to timing. I could look back on this some day and kick myself, but I hope that doesn't happen.
I hope your relationship works out and that you get everything you need. It's hard to imagine that you aren't married, I know you don't really want to get married, but I think it's crazy that a guy wouldn't want to make sure you are completely off the market. You're like the wife of a power couple that everyone admires when you walk into a room.
Anyways, I just wanted to tell you these things and I hope you take them positively and even though we don't see eye to eye on all of it I still care about you and think you are amazing. I can't believe we haven't even met in person, jesus it's a really good thing we didn't.
Take care and I'll probably send you a message on the website occasionally just to see how life is treating you as long as you are ok with that.
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I have to mention, a week ago when he was complaining about a LDR, I told him he should just move there and be with her. He said, "whoa, no way am I ready for anything like that. I have no desire to live in her state, so if it doesn't work out, I'd leave in a second, and come back here. I just got here, and I love it."
Also, he moved here as a knee-jerk when he found out his fiancé cheated, and moved here within weeks. This seems to be his pattern.
I guess I'm posting, NOT because I want to be with him, I don't - he's seriously a hot mess, (and I really want things to work with the old guy ) and IMO, rebounding all over the place. but more because I am not the type to react like this, and it seems so erratic. Do people really move to another state to "date" someone they met in person 5 weeks ago, and have not even exchanged I LOVE YOU's with?? Do they do that after they described almost meeting their "dream girl"? Personally, if I dated a guy that briefly and he moved to my state to be near be, I'd be freaked out.
A friend thinks he's making this up, and trying to get a reaction out of me.