Hey all, I'm here again post Christmas with the notion of discussing something that's been bothering me for awhile now. First of all Merry Christmas everyone and I hope all you've had a wonderful day so far.
Recently I've started talking to a girl on a social app and we hit it off instantly. By no time we were texting non stop and sharing sweet lovely thoughts about each other. The texting got so full on that we were basically texting each other massive 2500 character texts (close to 400-500 words) each day and this has been going back and forth for awhile now. She makes me happy and I make her happy but recently I've just figured out something about her that has been bothering me.
So awhile ago she told me about this instance where she was backing out of a car park and a car just sped past her nearly missing her. She told me about and how she felt so scared and upset about that she had a cry about it for awhile and was feeling very awful. Once again few days later she was telling me about how she randomly started feeling upset one night because she was thinking about every bad thing that happened to her this year and she was crying again was very upset. The thing here is she is not suffering from depression or anything but I sense that she might be emotionally sensitive or something.
Since we've been texting for awhile she was eagerly waiting to talk to me on the phone as shes very curious to hear to my voice. Unfortunately I wasn't able to go through it because I was either preoccupied or didn't have privacy (the latter one more like it). So couple nights ago we had a slight argument. I texted her before I left work at 5ish and she told me she'd text me around 11pm to let me know when to call. I got home around 10ish and then I waited till about 11:30 till I finally sent her a text saying that I waited for your text but I didn't get it so I'm going to bed now and I'm a bit upset about it. Just from me telling her that she replies saying she should be upset with me blah blah blah because I never called her and then brings it all back to me saying that I let her down multiple times. Obviously playing the guilt trip card. I didn't speak to her yesterday and she said she was going to be having a busy day so I didn't bother. At around 12am I saw her online on the app (it is a dating app) I used to talk to her on so I messaged her saying i wanted to talk to her about something but she she didn't get back to me then. She messaged me today saying she was busy and asleep by then, etc and that she is busy today and might talk properly tonight.
Just to note, every time I wasn't able to keep my word and call her, I apologized extensively and tried to make her understand. Her reaction on the other hand is to either say I let her down or insinuate that I don't care about her. Not to mention the fact that the two times she felt like having a cry I was the one who was there to try comfort her. I felt she was struggling from self-esteem and I tried to send a huge text with funny memes to cheer her up and also to tell her about the good qualities I saw in her and how much I appreciated her and she did say it was the sweetest thing any guy told her.
So, should I really feel that bad about myself for just expressing my feelings and saying I was upset? I should also mention that we had another huge argument at the very beginning about her rules on dating and stuff and she went on to give me an ultimatum of doing things her way or not talking to her any more or something. I tried to be respectful and I complied to her "rules". However, the way she set it up I felt like I was forced into doing what she wanted just to have one date with her and even continue talking to her. Her rules were normal and understandable but the tone she conveyed it to me was a bit brash and it felt like it was her way or the high way.
I believe everyone should be emotional and express themselves but it feels like with this girl I'm walking on thin ice if we get into any sort of argument or mishap.
Any ways, my question here is, are these early signs of something screwing up badly in the future or just slight personal imperfections on her end that I have to learn to deal with? She is fun and happy most of the times but when she's upset shes mega upset, thats the main problem. I'm far from perfect myself but when I give something to a girl I give it a 110%. Being able to figure this out now might give me a good idea of knowing what to do on from here. I am feeling more attached to this girl everyday and she is absolutely amazing but I don't want to end up getting hurt either or be in a tricky predicament.
Just general comments and advice would be helpful, thanks