I'm 23, and have been with my first boyfriend/first love since May 2013 (around 9 months). He's 27, it sounds like a big age difference, but he looks like a 25 yrs old.
I can't complain about my relationship with him, because he's an awesome person. He cares about me a lot, he tells me and shows it everyday. In my case, I love him as well, and do care about him, and I let him know that too. But this is my first relationship, and sometimes I think about it, and have some doubts. He's more passionated about our relationship than I am. We have even talked about getting marry and having kids in the future and stuff. I mean, he's definitely a keeper, there's nothing wrong with him. I'm just scare because I lose my passion sometimes... I have doubts because of my doubts.... if that makes any sense.
I don't know how to prove myself? that he is the one. I see these other people being in other relationships, experiencing and stuff about being with someone different, and in a way I will like to maybe, hangout with someone else and see how that goes, but on the other hand, I don't want to leave my bf, because, what if he is really THE one? and I'm making a huge mistake?... Is not that I'm afraid of staying alone for ever, nor that I want to struggle in finding love, like other ppl have gone through. YES I'm really lucky that my first bf is husband material, I'm just not sure that I'm really in love love?.... Or maybe I am, but I'm just afraid to accept it? don't know why though.
The way I see it too is that, he has had other gf and have dated other girls and stuff, so he knows what else is out there. I have never dated a guy before, he is my first everything!..... I just feel like I'm missing that part of youth or whatever. I know is a silly "problem" but this is a commitment you do for the rest of your life.
Please, don't think that I'm a dumb girl or something. I just need advice or different points of view of what should I do....
Should I just forget/scratch the idea of maybe hanging out with someone else? (not right away of course, since there is no one else I'm interested at the moments)
Should I just go with the flow of the relationship?... Although I know sooner or later we'll get marry
Am I being just silly?
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