"Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent." Nietzsche
There are two dilemmas... that rattle the human skull. How do you hold onto someone who won't stay? And how do you get rid of someone who won't go?
I read one of your earlier posts and in the general scheme of things you sound highly ambitious with distinct goals in mind i.e. getting PHd and knowing approx when you want to have kids etc.
It also sounds like you are suffering from loneliness as well. Is it possible (just putting it out there) that it is companionship that you are craving? How many friends have you made at the Uni so far?
If it is just sex that you are after and considering the distance factor and your ambitions i would be more inclined to put the relationship on hold. If he is the only man that you have had sex with you are probably naturally curious to see what it is like with other people. I would just try to be fair to your current boyfriend. Who knows he may be getting offers and turning them down to be faithful to you.
I think you will do the right thing.
Don't cry, don't regret and don't blame
Weak find the whip, willing find freedom
Towards the sun, carry your name
In warm hands you are given
Ask the wind for the way
Uncertainty's gone, your path will unravel
Accept all as it is and do not blame
God or the Devil
~Born to Live - Mavrik~
That hit me like a hammer on my head. Congrats, you've actually got me crying.
You don't know how hard it's been here for me. I finished my bachelor studies in another city. And the University I'm at now really sucks, but I didn't know that before I started... So I came here for my master study, but didn't get any introduction at all at the University. First month I had daily 3-hour classes with 6 others, all doing different master programme's and none living nearby. I was bored to death, only 3 hours of classes a day... I cried about every day, this was the first time I left home and I hated it. But I'm not the kind of person to give up so easily. I still don't know many people here, you're right, I don't know a single person doing the same study.... The work I'm doing is part of that study and they're about the only people I know. I know some from guitar classes and sports courses I'm taking, but they're very shallow contacts. Maybe I'm just feeling attracted to that guy for the bit of attention he gives me
Thanx for all replies btw. I know you guys are right and I SHOULD break up with my bf, I'm not being fair to him. But I also think I won't be able to stay sane here without my daily phone calls with him. That very thought is horrifying though, sounds as if I'm only staying in a relationship because I'm desperate for some human contact
I'll work it out somehow. Thanx for opening my eyes.
Because I suck at making decisions and tend to leave them to others whenever I can. I consider that to be the weakest point in my personality.
Thanx for honesty.
I don't know. I seriously don't. But knowing him, he'll have an opinion on it in a sec. and also make a choice. Either he accepts it or he doesn't. He's not like me to leave it open........