Sorry guys, I accidentally smashed my phone..taken a little bit to get a new one to get back on here.
We do have money but my husband doesnt like spending much...correct. He gets really moody with it and resentful towards me when we have to. When we moved to where we are now he turned as soon as it was time to pay money. I thought it was to do with the affair, seeing how recent it was, but it turns out he was just irritated with spending money and so I was blamed ( even though it was him insisting we move). Its just him really. I've come to accept and expect it but I do tread carefully and try to avoid outbursts at the same time to try to keep peace. If he comes back with me home we WILL need someone or some help like Wakeup mentioned though. But we'll see what happens...he may decide its too hard and not come back with me yet.
Thats why I wanted to ask if it was too much of me to want to return to a place that holds bad memories for him? Is it unfair of me to ask him to? If thats the case we might as well just go our separate ways now. Its so strong in me to go back - I never wanted to move away...
I'm trying so hard not to be selfish right now though and trying to consider his feelings... but as much as I'm trying to see and feel from his position ..I just cant seem to. Its like that part of me is non responsive/ blocked at the moment.
Smackie9 - do you think this is a punishment moving away? Considering what I did I kind of felt like my feelings were irrelevant compared to his .. I felt and STILL feel incredibly awful about the pain I caused him.....he ran though and took me with him..but I feel it was also a pride/ego thing, as well as getting me away from the guy in question.
I hope this post isnt all over the place...I guess I have been using this forum as a safe place to vent..my thoughts just seem to tumble out through my fingers..I'm not thinking, just typing and I've probably been repeating myself 😕