Dude, im not making fun of you, im trying to help you. Have u noticed the pattern? You have no contact, dont see her or speak to her and you start feeling a little bit better..........then you see her/speak to her and you feel down...and you have to pick yourself up all over again. You must surely see this pattern. For the 100th time i know how hard it is to ignore all your feelings and completely ignore her but it must be done to move on.

She came into your house and was talking with your parents, which wasnt your fault. It made you feel down and upset but you did the right thing by not trying to hug her or tell her you miss her, so you are on the way. Hopefully the welcome you gave her when you found her sitting with your parents will give her the idea not to do it again.

Keep strong mate, im not making fun and you know it, you just wernt getting the picture...