Hi everybody,
I am new to this board. I am in desperate need of advice. My girlfriend of 2 years broke up with me 2 weeks ago. And I am really confused, because, our relationship was really great. I honestly felt that she was the one I wanted to spend my life with. Over the 2 years, we were amazing. However, several months ago, she broke down into tears and told me that her friend of a year was being flirty with her, and she couldn't resist the temptation of flirting back. She went on to say that he had been flirting with her for the entire year they had known each other, and because he had been very convincing and slick, she couldn't get him out of her mind. So finally, in most emotionally devastating break-up I could ever imagine she came over and told me she had to explore other people if she was to ever truly know what we had (I was her first love and she was mine). So needless to say the first week I was pretty messed up. However, after a week of not talking, we starting talking online, and decided to be friends, which I truly want to be. So the guy she basically broke up with me for, is now basically toying with her, not telling her if hes interested or not, and she is suffering over that, and it make me suffer more that she is suffering. So she has recently convinced him to go out with her, and over the last week she has been going over to his apartment and watching movies with him in his room. I don't know whats happening in his room, but I assume only the worst. I haven't been able to sleep, and I've been crying in my bed every night I know she is with him in his apartment. Last night, we had decided to go out to dinner as friends, and it was amazing. The chemistry was wonderful, and it was like we were in the beginning of our relationship; we were laughing, joking, flirting, playing around and hugged several times during the night. So after our dinner she goes to his apartment, and when I ask her on IM how her night was, she won't talk to me. She won't tell me if they are together, or not; just for my closure. She get mad, and says I need to get over her, and that "I am not your girlfriend!", which of course I knew. I, a once really stable person, have been reduced to a pile of crying mush, and she is out living it up with him. I have no, "rebound", or anyone that I can even see myself pursuing. I am going crazy. I cant sleep well, I cant stop thinking about her, and I know I have to. Any Advice?
Thank you.