Everything started in Middle October 2010 I got in contact with an cousin I haven't seen in 8 years. Now my cousin I really love her more than anyone she's like my sister who I never really got to know.
My sister died the same week as she was born in 1991, I didn't know anything until I was 7 years when my mom finally wanted to tell me about it. After that day I suffered from desperation as a child in three years until I get on track again. My cousin is as old as my sister would have been thats why I see her as my sister, we share the soul and therefore I have a "feminine" part in me
Now this October I got in contact with my cousin on facebook as I said I haven't seen her in 7 years.
We started chatting and inboxing each other A LOT it makes sense after all we haven't seen each other since 2003, my desperation of the old times started coming back with the combination of how much I miss her I got a complete tear down this November talked with psychologists about the problem started with medication and exactly when everything was going good the most feared thing occured.
Started with me loosing the contact more and more with her th past couple of days she didn't reply to my msgs, I started to panic until I found her number and called her no one answered. When I asked her sister of whats going on I got the reply "Look we don't want you anymore just forget about us and move on" I saw shocked about what she wrote after hours of me asking why she said that she simply blocked me on every site.
This night her best friend msgs me on facebook and explains what's going on she starts of talking:
I was shocked about all this, how can her boyfriend get jealous of me loving my cousin I mean for gods sake I am her cousin no matter what happens I will always love her and especially her because of our special connection.Look David your cousin has been hiding something from you, thing is every letter, chat, inbox, mail etc. have been watched by her BOYFRIEND. Now please you are causing problems between them because he is getting jealous that there is other guys who love her. So please when I say your messages really made them argue. Just please leave her alone
He even threatened to come to my country just to beat me up I was like WTF.
The thing that bothers me is 4 main things:
First she didn't tell me she had a boyfriend, that way I could have formulated every msg so it doesn't lead to misunderstandings.
Second who the hell comes between the family I mean if you love her so much you would be able to handle that their is some in her family who loves her, it wouldn't make sense to have a cousin that you don't love.
Third if he really loves her so much he would have understood that her cousins love her to I mean he really played some cards wrong here you wouldn't get jealous about the family if you really love her.
Fourth why the hell does he read the everything I have written I mean it's pretty personal and to drive him crazy with my feelings and the love I show my cousin without knowing it is really disturbing.
Now she said try to forget about me; erase me BUT HOW THE HELL WOULD I BE ABLE TO DO THAT she's my cousin and especially she stands very close to my heart and I can't forget her as I said: No matter what I will always have her in my mind she's my cousin for god sake and I want the best for her.
I don't think a guy that get jealous about his girlfriend's cousin is the right guy, what would they do in the future he would one day crush her heart and she will hate me forever.
So what are your thoughts on this I really need help here
P.s I have a girlfriend and she respects the relationship I have with my cousin