When I was younger (teenager) I became friends with this guy. We just connected completely. We became best friends and were for about a year and a half. We spoke every day and knew the other person better then we knew ourselves. Then we got together. I really loved him... it was deeper then I ever imagined love could be. It was literally unconditional (and that was tested) and I would have done anything for him. He said he wanted to marry me one day and build a life with me, and I would have married him one day.
For about 6 months everything was perfect, then things just started going wrong... the details really aren't important. For another 6 months it was up and down. Then he left me. Then he started seeing someone else 3 weeks later... and we all went to the same (small) college and I had to see them together every day.
It took me over a year to start getting over him... the things he said and did, and just how he became (he has serious mental and emotional problems) and how he treated me and how he made me feel is all really unforgivable. I don't want to be with him, I want nothing to do with him... I pretty much hate how he is now. I don't know how much time would have to pass before we could be ok again (but we don't talk ever).
since then I've been with 2 guys, one that I was kinda seeing and my current boyfriend.
so I'm over him. But I've never felt anything close to what I felt for him. I've never felt that connection with anyone. I've just not come close to how I felt with him... I kinda feel like I'll never love someone that much again. I miss what we had (but not him). And its like I'll never be fully satisfied with another relationship because I won't love them as much as I loved that first guy.