It's so hard
... no matter who she is, what she did, what I did, what went wrong... regardless of all the different variables, it's hard to accept living the rest of your life without a person that was there with you and for you, every day and every night for almost 2 years. Even though I do know there was probably a lot more bad than good, moving forward it feels like I lost a big part of me, and this no contact thing while I know is best for me, is absolutely tearing me up inside. It's barely even been a week and it feels like an eternity.
Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.