Im 24 my boyfriend is 27.
We met February. We dated for several weeks and went official in March so its been about 4 months now.
In the last 2 months he says quite often 'id love to settle down with you', 'your perfect for me', 'your the first person id consider marrying and having children with' etc etc.
We were speaking this morning and the conversation casually come onto children. I said jokingly "ooh im not sure if I ever want kids, all that awful pain, Im probably the type just to have one then settle with that" He responded quite abruptly with "well kids are a big deal for me so if you never want them then thats us dead in the water now!" I was like, erm..
How I look at things- I want a loving relationship and marriage, if children come along then its an added bonus but its not the be all and end all, if I cant have them then its ok. Its a massive thing to put your body through and a life long commitment, I wouldn't flippantly just say 'yea why not'. I want someone to be with me because they love me, children only hang about for 16 years anyway then your left with your partner, so I want to be with someone that really loves me no matter how many kids we have/ dont have or anything else that would come and go.
I explained all this to him, then also said "what if I never want children or found out in 5 years I wasnt ever able to have them, would you not stay with me?!" He said "Im pretty sure in a few years you'll want kids anyway so im not worried as im pretty sure about that, and if we found out you couldnt have them theres alternative options we could do"
I kind of dropped the subject there but I get the impression that hes only with me as some kind of baby machine. As far as I can tell hes an honest guy (a little controlling and messed up from a badish upbringing) but he would look after me and I believe that. But im a but concerned hes just in love with the idea of marriage and kids but not specifically with 'me' and if I couldnt have kids then he'd be off.
Ive no idea what I want in life, kids etc, no idea, I want a loving relationship and just to take days as they come, but I dont want to feel like I have to have children if I want to stay with my partner, as I wouldnt..
Any advice or is he just being sweet and Im overreacting?!