Well.. this is another best friend issue that I saw someone else have on another thread, but I'm afraid its much more complicated than that..
We are pretty much best friends even though we met in like December 07. We see each other almost everyday.. and we talk about anything we want to. We feel very comfortable with each other and everything is going great..well almost great. The first time I saw her.. I fell in love.. BUT because she has a bf we just became very good friends.. I was hoping I could resist these crazy feelings I have for her.. but as time passed it only got harder.. All I ever think about is her..There is no doubt that I love her.. but can someone resist love? haha I remember asking her that and she said "No" haha..irony..
The closer she gets to me the more it hurts when she leaves back to his house(and she never tells him about me, saying because he worries too much)(And for those who are thinking "how does this bf not notice his gf gone like every other day?" well the thing is.. is that he works like 24/7). I think we crossed the border in our friendship.. or it must be one affectionate friendship.. I mean we hug so much that I lose track .. we give each other massages.. we even sleep together(not sex) and cuddle..Just yesterday in the pool, we were holding each other and stroking each other for like an hour.. And as much as I love being with her.. I fear I'm just digging a deeper hole for myself..
Sometimes I feel like I'm being used or something.. I think she "thinks" she loves him because they've been together for 3 years.. so I don't think leaving him has even crossed her mind.. well it probably did.. but I don't think she would do it on the account of she really cares about other people's feelings.. but I also think the reason she comes to me is because she is not getting enough of love from him.. so she comes to me for it..
well I'm sure you know to what question this is all leading up to..Do I tell her..? and take the chance of maybe ruining our friendship. Or should I try to be more distant? Which will bring lots of pain...